Well this is how shit is going for now....
Well I'm not exactly sure how things are going right now...But I think I'm pretty much typing to myself cause I don't even think ne ones reads these things ne ways..but oh well...Things between me and Will are ok I guess...Well with us together their great just that minor damn detail that he's BANNED from my house kinda fucks a few things up if ya know what I mean...I feel like a damn 5 year old saying this but oh fucking well...I miss my mom!!! I wish that my grandparents would let her come back home...But I know that will never happen...I miss being able to see her whenever I want to and just going to go hang out together basically whenever we wanted to...the memories are both great and horrible all at the same time...I'ma gonna shut up about me missing my mommy! I also miss my fiance more than ne thing!!! Last night he came up bout 12 something and we just sat in my drive way for almost an hour or so and I finally found that peace that I had sooo longed for...Just that peace of being in his arms...That is my place..that is where I wanna b for the rest of time...when my grandparents banned me from him...and my mom had to take him back over to Donnie's and I had to say goodbye not knowing when the next time was that I was going to see him had to be one of the hardest things I've ever done...Just to give him that hug and kiss and see him walk away...I went to my room and just bawled up a storm!! My whole pillow was soaked from all the tears...It was horrible...but now we're back in school and I get to see him everyday!! And I have 2nd period with him which is great!! I just wish that I had lunch with him too...I miss him more than I could ever explain...He is my whole world...My everything and more!! I love him with a full heart!! Every part of my heart and soul loves him!! And when I am apart from him it cries for that warmth of just being in his arms once more...I wrote this lil poem thing a few days after he got banned and I just thought that I'd put it in here.... "I can't stop the tears I cry for you...I miss you more than you'll ever know...and I long for that peace that I once had just laying in your arms.." and last night I felt like I had finally found that peace once again...But I am gonna go for now...leave a comment on this if you would like to... peace everyone...
*~*Angel*~*
*~*Angel*~*