Fandom, why can't I get rid of youuuuuu
Dear Kitty,
Note to self, quit falling obsessively in love with fandoms. Old fandoms, new fandoms, it doesnt matter, everything is free game. I had this conversation with my friend Chrissy and we were talking about fandoms we are in. I couldn't tell her what I was into because I was either finishing a fandom fling, or inbetween a fandom or thinking of oldie but goodies that I wasn't reading but were in the fore front of my mind. So I am going to talk fandom here for a sec, hope thats ok with you.
Inception, I'm going to talk about Inception. I had just passed an Inception rec list and now I feel like I'm falling through that gravity-less hallway in the film.
Oh god I fell so damn HARD for that fandom. It was Eames. I wanted to eat him up. Him and Arthur. I read everything that came to the Eames/Arthur community and kink!meme. And then I left for the Bahamas and Disney World. And though I had fic saved onto my ipod, when I came back, the fandom was so huge it was a bottomless monster waiting to eat my eyes. I couldn't let it do that to me. So I gave it up, right then and there because my fear that I would never be able to process so much goodness overwhelmed me. I still feel the need to read some Eames/Arthur goodness like an old heroin addiction. It was a short affair but intense. I'm still afraid to look into that room. The Inception Monster will get me.
As of Wednesday I've decided that Klaine is the best thing in the world. I love the show Glee and Kurt has been my favorite character since the beginning. I was so excited that Harry-fricken-Potter (from a Very Potter Musical) was to be Blaine, Kurt's mentor and possible love interest. I LOVE Harry Potter. He is a handsome guy with a great voice, and without all that hair he looks even better.
The thing I was hoping to God would happen though was that Kurt would NOT get Blaine. I love my characters to suffer and he does it so well. I had this great idea that Blaine should not be interested in Kurt as a partner and should have a boyfriend already. Kurt would find out and bleed his heart on the floor and become a stronger, better character out of it. First loves are hard. This was perfect. And that happened to some extent in the show. I was happy.
And then that episode!!! The tension!! The Passion!! The I-Need-You-Right-Nowness of it. Perfect. I loved that kiss. Now I'm happy that Kurt got his man, because there should be a happy ending to a tortured souls story. I seriously jumped out of my chair, started shouting words of encouragement to the tv and ran up to hug it.
So since Thursday I have been trying to red Klaine fics. I thought they were be epic and wonderful (like the show) but I find the pickings to be slim and uneventful. Klaine I guess is not for me. As of right now, this hard hitting fandom of three days is already at an end. You were fun little fandom, but not enough.
Another fandom that I fell in love with was Assassins Creed. A video that I did not even play. I watched it like a movie as my boyfriend played through the levels. I never thought a video game could be so much fun to watch. It has a great storyline, good characters, and fun journeys.
I found myself syncronizing with the fandom and thought each fic was a challenge to be overcome.
Eventually I stopped racing to these "competitions" when I went to the Bahamas (same time as Inception,) but unlike Inception, I did not feel this fear that the fandom will destroy me. I'm just miffed that some of the stories in the kinkmeme never get finished!!! This is no game, this is fandom! I passed by a writer who had updated a story and started a new one. I don't know if I've done enough stretching and training to jump into it again. Possibly.
"Turn back, Sara. Turn back!" I can't. Labyrinth swallowed my heart up and I have become completely enamored with the Goblin King's mismatched eyes and crooked grin. Sara is possibly the most lucky girl in all the nine kingdoms and beyond. I love the fandom because of all the detail that one can bring to the Labyrinth and the Goblin City. I think that is my favorite part of fandom: the ability to fill in the blanks about what happens on the weekends. Where does So-and-So live. What does this character do for fun when they are off duty. Damn fandom is great. This fandom is great. Fun fun fun fun fun. So fun that my fancy in it has flee to some where else (oh it was Klaine... well thats done.)
Then there's the big kahuna of my fandom. Pirates of the Caribbean. I love you fandom, you come and go as you please but I have no fear of whatever new fic or pic you have like Inception, and you may not burn as fast that Klaine fandom, but you do burn just as brightly. I love coming to the Sparrington comm and seeing the new fics and pics. I haven't been the Norribeth in a long while, but I loved that one too. All those ships of mine, I feel like I can go back to them at any time. This fandom is a solid mountain.
And then there are those other smaller, but no less amazing fandoms that I have been into over the years or seconds.
Speed Racer (still feel for you man, I want to do art for you!), Star Wars, Star Trek, Beauty and the Beast, House, Chuck, Firefly (Jayne's the man!), Avatar: TLAB, Peter Pan, Harry Potter (Still love you, you're like PotC), Top Gun, Sherlock Holmes, Lord of the Rings, Zelda, Gundam Wing, Trigun, Jules Verne, Fairy Tales, Buffy, Doctor Who (not shabby, bigger on the inside than the outside), M*A*S*H, Tron (only in thought), Master and Commander, Horatio and so many others that I cannot recall because there were too many to remember.
I'm so glad fandom exists, but I guess it has always existed, from the first re-telling of a Hercules story with a different ending to the different versions of stories the Grimm Brothers told to audiences to fit their needs.
Thank you Kitty for listening to me.
Note to self, quit falling obsessively in love with fandoms. Old fandoms, new fandoms, it doesnt matter, everything is free game. I had this conversation with my friend Chrissy and we were talking about fandoms we are in. I couldn't tell her what I was into because I was either finishing a fandom fling, or inbetween a fandom or thinking of oldie but goodies that I wasn't reading but were in the fore front of my mind. So I am going to talk fandom here for a sec, hope thats ok with you.
Inception, I'm going to talk about Inception. I had just passed an Inception rec list and now I feel like I'm falling through that gravity-less hallway in the film.
Oh god I fell so damn HARD for that fandom. It was Eames. I wanted to eat him up. Him and Arthur. I read everything that came to the Eames/Arthur community and kink!meme. And then I left for the Bahamas and Disney World. And though I had fic saved onto my ipod, when I came back, the fandom was so huge it was a bottomless monster waiting to eat my eyes. I couldn't let it do that to me. So I gave it up, right then and there because my fear that I would never be able to process so much goodness overwhelmed me. I still feel the need to read some Eames/Arthur goodness like an old heroin addiction. It was a short affair but intense. I'm still afraid to look into that room. The Inception Monster will get me.
As of Wednesday I've decided that Klaine is the best thing in the world. I love the show Glee and Kurt has been my favorite character since the beginning. I was so excited that Harry-fricken-Potter (from a Very Potter Musical) was to be Blaine, Kurt's mentor and possible love interest. I LOVE Harry Potter. He is a handsome guy with a great voice, and without all that hair he looks even better.
The thing I was hoping to God would happen though was that Kurt would NOT get Blaine. I love my characters to suffer and he does it so well. I had this great idea that Blaine should not be interested in Kurt as a partner and should have a boyfriend already. Kurt would find out and bleed his heart on the floor and become a stronger, better character out of it. First loves are hard. This was perfect. And that happened to some extent in the show. I was happy.
And then that episode!!! The tension!! The Passion!! The I-Need-You-Right-Nowness of it. Perfect. I loved that kiss. Now I'm happy that Kurt got his man, because there should be a happy ending to a tortured souls story. I seriously jumped out of my chair, started shouting words of encouragement to the tv and ran up to hug it.
So since Thursday I have been trying to red Klaine fics. I thought they were be epic and wonderful (like the show) but I find the pickings to be slim and uneventful. Klaine I guess is not for me. As of right now, this hard hitting fandom of three days is already at an end. You were fun little fandom, but not enough.
Another fandom that I fell in love with was Assassins Creed. A video that I did not even play. I watched it like a movie as my boyfriend played through the levels. I never thought a video game could be so much fun to watch. It has a great storyline, good characters, and fun journeys.
I found myself syncronizing with the fandom and thought each fic was a challenge to be overcome.
Eventually I stopped racing to these "competitions" when I went to the Bahamas (same time as Inception,) but unlike Inception, I did not feel this fear that the fandom will destroy me. I'm just miffed that some of the stories in the kinkmeme never get finished!!! This is no game, this is fandom! I passed by a writer who had updated a story and started a new one. I don't know if I've done enough stretching and training to jump into it again. Possibly.
"Turn back, Sara. Turn back!" I can't. Labyrinth swallowed my heart up and I have become completely enamored with the Goblin King's mismatched eyes and crooked grin. Sara is possibly the most lucky girl in all the nine kingdoms and beyond. I love the fandom because of all the detail that one can bring to the Labyrinth and the Goblin City. I think that is my favorite part of fandom: the ability to fill in the blanks about what happens on the weekends. Where does So-and-So live. What does this character do for fun when they are off duty. Damn fandom is great. This fandom is great. Fun fun fun fun fun. So fun that my fancy in it has flee to some where else (oh it was Klaine... well thats done.)
Then there's the big kahuna of my fandom. Pirates of the Caribbean. I love you fandom, you come and go as you please but I have no fear of whatever new fic or pic you have like Inception, and you may not burn as fast that Klaine fandom, but you do burn just as brightly. I love coming to the Sparrington comm and seeing the new fics and pics. I haven't been the Norribeth in a long while, but I loved that one too. All those ships of mine, I feel like I can go back to them at any time. This fandom is a solid mountain.
And then there are those other smaller, but no less amazing fandoms that I have been into over the years or seconds.
Speed Racer (still feel for you man, I want to do art for you!), Star Wars, Star Trek, Beauty and the Beast, House, Chuck, Firefly (Jayne's the man!), Avatar: TLAB, Peter Pan, Harry Potter (Still love you, you're like PotC), Top Gun, Sherlock Holmes, Lord of the Rings, Zelda, Gundam Wing, Trigun, Jules Verne, Fairy Tales, Buffy, Doctor Who (not shabby, bigger on the inside than the outside), M*A*S*H, Tron (only in thought), Master and Commander, Horatio and so many others that I cannot recall because there were too many to remember.
I'm so glad fandom exists, but I guess it has always existed, from the first re-telling of a Hercules story with a different ending to the different versions of stories the Grimm Brothers told to audiences to fit their needs.
Thank you Kitty for listening to me.