Yule - Day 20
Sooner or later this one had to be posted:
I'm writing this on the evening of 19th, so... Just here to say I'm so tired. Worked 7.30am until 7.30pm. About 10 minutes lunch break. Everything was chaotic, last minute super urgent and a whole damn mess. Good thing I'll be working from home on Friday else I may well have been tempted to kick someone's a**. You know, nice one to still hang out at the office at, say, 7pm and realize that all but 2 sales people have nicely gone home and our offices? Still there, trying to snuff out fires here and there and everywhere. Ridiculous emails such as *here are all the documents and the calculation. can you forward to contracting today?* received at 3.30pm where half of the sent items are WRONG or missing and where I had asked for corrections and specific documentation and approvals ONE FREAKING WEEK AGO!
So why is she still awake and typing here, you ask?
Because on Friday at 7am I've got that damn dentist appointment and that always freaks me out no end. :( It will be good to have it over with in the morning. But this always completely drains me. Supressing panic does that to you. So how am I even supposed to function for the rest of the day? I let boss woman know that I may (will!) not be in the best of spirits so yeah, she knows. But then she doesn't know. People who don't know what phobia-like-panic feels haven't got a clue and usually just think you're being dramatic. Heck, I wish I felt different, but I don't. All I can say is that with this place and dentist I feel slightly, very, very slightly less bad as I used to. It's minimal. It's something.
It will be the check up but also fixing one tooth. I hope nothing more. For my own sanity, as well as for my purse because all of that will cost a fortune. :(
So yeah... maybe I'll post an update until this is automatically posted and you'll read right here, as in right below here, what happened... if I have time... I'll do that.
AND HERE'S SAID UPDATE:
That dentist's appt? WTF... I got up extra early, of course I felt as wrecked as can be, went there... sat in that damn dentist chair for 20 minutes and waited and thought... I'm the first appointment. What the heck? And in comes the receptionist being terribly sorry, but my dentist was stuck on a train that was very delayed and that they have to cancel my appointment. Yes, I know it's nobody's fault and I'm not angry or something at my dentist. But WTF... Yesterday I'd already felt a bit like... instinctively?... that something would go weird with this. Not in a bad way, but the feeling I sometimes get about something (can be anything) that it won't even happen, even if it's planned etc. So I was right once more. Yay instinct.
I traveled back home feeling really drained and exhausted and am working now. And I'll have to call them for a new appointment. I said I'd call as I need to check my work schedule and what's going on when to know when I could go...
So that was all a bit pointless...
But for this amazing view that I got this morning when I returned home (and never would have seen had the appointment taken place):
I'm writing this on the evening of 19th, so... Just here to say I'm so tired. Worked 7.30am until 7.30pm. About 10 minutes lunch break. Everything was chaotic, last minute super urgent and a whole damn mess. Good thing I'll be working from home on Friday else I may well have been tempted to kick someone's a**. You know, nice one to still hang out at the office at, say, 7pm and realize that all but 2 sales people have nicely gone home and our offices? Still there, trying to snuff out fires here and there and everywhere. Ridiculous emails such as *here are all the documents and the calculation. can you forward to contracting today?* received at 3.30pm where half of the sent items are WRONG or missing and where I had asked for corrections and specific documentation and approvals ONE FREAKING WEEK AGO!
So why is she still awake and typing here, you ask?
Because on Friday at 7am I've got that damn dentist appointment and that always freaks me out no end. :( It will be good to have it over with in the morning. But this always completely drains me. Supressing panic does that to you. So how am I even supposed to function for the rest of the day? I let boss woman know that I may (will!) not be in the best of spirits so yeah, she knows. But then she doesn't know. People who don't know what phobia-like-panic feels haven't got a clue and usually just think you're being dramatic. Heck, I wish I felt different, but I don't. All I can say is that with this place and dentist I feel slightly, very, very slightly less bad as I used to. It's minimal. It's something.
It will be the check up but also fixing one tooth. I hope nothing more. For my own sanity, as well as for my purse because all of that will cost a fortune. :(
So yeah... maybe I'll post an update until this is automatically posted and you'll read right here, as in right below here, what happened... if I have time... I'll do that.
AND HERE'S SAID UPDATE:
That dentist's appt? WTF... I got up extra early, of course I felt as wrecked as can be, went there... sat in that damn dentist chair for 20 minutes and waited and thought... I'm the first appointment. What the heck? And in comes the receptionist being terribly sorry, but my dentist was stuck on a train that was very delayed and that they have to cancel my appointment. Yes, I know it's nobody's fault and I'm not angry or something at my dentist. But WTF... Yesterday I'd already felt a bit like... instinctively?... that something would go weird with this. Not in a bad way, but the feeling I sometimes get about something (can be anything) that it won't even happen, even if it's planned etc. So I was right once more. Yay instinct.
I traveled back home feeling really drained and exhausted and am working now. And I'll have to call them for a new appointment. I said I'd call as I need to check my work schedule and what's going on when to know when I could go...
So that was all a bit pointless...
But for this amazing view that I got this morning when I returned home (and never would have seen had the appointment taken place):