4th of july!!!
4th of july is always one of the most depressing days of the year for me ever since my daddy died,
it was the one holiday we spent just the 2 of us, and i miss that oh so much,
yesterday began to suck even worse with all the fucking rain we got, then the tears started to flow, *shrugs* i just miss my father more then anything, and i hate not being able to spend our holiday together...
but my good ole husband adam packed up and took us to see fireworks out in charles county, and i must say, even tho i was so depressed and was missing my father, lastnight was one of the best 4th of july's ive ever had,
sharing something that i used to do with my father every 4th of july now with my own daughter was a gift.
seeing her eyes open wide and a smile on her face every time she saw the fireworks boom.... the way i stood there and held her the whole time, it was so awesome i started to cry, and then i realized why it meant to so much for me and my daddy to always spend the 4th together... its a gift...
i cant forget about zoe... it was zoe's first time at real fireworks as well, the first initial shock from the fireworks scared her and she jumped up into the back of the blazer but then she losend up and had a blast as well...
so i hope everyone else had a good 4th like i did, i cannot wait to share more with alyssa every year! i hope it turns out to be something as good as it was with my daddy and I
it was the one holiday we spent just the 2 of us, and i miss that oh so much,
yesterday began to suck even worse with all the fucking rain we got, then the tears started to flow, *shrugs* i just miss my father more then anything, and i hate not being able to spend our holiday together...
but my good ole husband adam packed up and took us to see fireworks out in charles county, and i must say, even tho i was so depressed and was missing my father, lastnight was one of the best 4th of july's ive ever had,
sharing something that i used to do with my father every 4th of july now with my own daughter was a gift.
seeing her eyes open wide and a smile on her face every time she saw the fireworks boom.... the way i stood there and held her the whole time, it was so awesome i started to cry, and then i realized why it meant to so much for me and my daddy to always spend the 4th together... its a gift...
i cant forget about zoe... it was zoe's first time at real fireworks as well, the first initial shock from the fireworks scared her and she jumped up into the back of the blazer but then she losend up and had a blast as well...
so i hope everyone else had a good 4th like i did, i cannot wait to share more with alyssa every year! i hope it turns out to be something as good as it was with my daddy and I