a card? a movie? and roses?
7 dollar roses, a 14 dollar movie, a little stuffed gorilla a box of cookies and a card that says he loves spending holidays with me just gives him another reason to spoil me love me and show me how great i am?
was he thinking this when he ruined my valentines day yesterday? was he thinking this when he ruined our 1 and only first anniversary? this first anniversary that only comes ONCE!?
that he has basically ruined the whole fucking year weve been married?
does he really think that this stupid little shit is really going to make all things better? like im supposed to just be like OH OK HE LOVES ME!
bullshit, if he loved me he wouldnt do the same damn thing to me over and over and over again and each time say the same thing, and end up doing it again anyways...
and to tell me he feels DEPRIVED??? does he not know what im going through? hearing him say that made me wanna die right then and there... deprived... cause its my fault im pregnant... i musta gone and done it myself...
THEN TO SAY HES ADDICTED??? if hes addicted maybe he should get some god damn help... or better yet maybe i should go sleep around get pregnant by a few other guys in the next few years and tell him i cant help it... IM ADDICTED... see how that feels for him...
this last year being married i cant really remember a time where he really showed me how much he loved me if it didnt involv him fucking up and hurting me... SO I HAVE TO BE HURT for him to show me how much i mean to him...
Im pregnant with HIS FUCKING CHILD and this whole time ive never felt the support from him that i should, sure he says he loves me... a million times a day... to be honest it gets annoying to hear it the same way every 10 minutes... i want to feel it...
and maybe if he wasnt such a fucking DICK he wouldnt feel "DEPRIVED"
maybe if he was there emotionally supporting me and showing me how much he loves me each and every day, i wouldnt be the greedy bitch he must see me as...
but why would i want to do anything to please him? when im not happy myself?
it hurts me so much right now that i honestly wish i wasnt pregnant with his child, it would be so much easier to leave him, and i believe thats what i should do to atleast make myself happy,
it aches and it burns that marriage is supposed to be happy but i dont really remember being happy this last year...
before i married adam i was always happy, he made me feel so great,
its pretty damn sad when id rather spend time with zoe because adam bores me, hurts me and makes me feel unloved.
hes never been involved with this pregnancy, i feel as if its all me... when i ask him a important thing about this i feel as if he could care less if we had the baby or not...
he never comes out and says "i was thinking of doing this for the baby" or " what do yout hink about this name"
its always me and the answer i always get BURNS A HOLE IN MY HEART EACH AND EVER TIME
i honestly feel if he doesnt change, i will never be truley happy, and to never be happy is just not right... ive had too much shit in my life to not be happy now...
and if leaving adam is something that would make things better in the long run i just might have to do that.
it would hurt cause i love him more then anything...
but whats the point of staying with someone who always hurts me and makes me feel like this?
i wouldnt even be this hurt about this if it were 2 weeks from now... but for him to hurt me like this the day before valentines day and 2 days before our first anniversary? kills me... it hurts, hes ruined it for me...and i cant even look at him right now... i will break down crying... i feel like smashing his heart in and stomping on it over and over again to show him how he makes me feel, i feel like screaming at him, but i cant... i cant cause myself any more stress, im 10 weeks away from having our baby, and stress would just hurt things worse....
i just dont know what to do... it hurts to go on not looking at him and making very little contact with him, but i just cant talk to him... i cant even look at him,and when i hear him say he loves me it hurts... shouldnt being told your loved feel good? how can i believe him? i dont believe a word he says...
hes done this to me so many times...swears he wont do it again and ends up doing it anyways...
if he really loved me he wouldnt do this shit.
if he really loved me this last year of marriage wouldnt feel like a waist of time to me,
if he really loved me i wouldnt be feeling the way i do...
if he really loved me he would know a card and flowers is not going to make anything better...
id rather him not get me anything, because getting gay ass crap like this to say your sorry hurts...
my feelings and my broken heart can not be bought to make me feel better
right now i have a song stuck in my head its basically how i feel
Lets say Im feeling better
Lets say Im feeling fine
Lets say I gave you all I had
And now Im out of time
And my best wasnt good enough
And now this time to wonder
Now this time to heal
Time to let it all come down
But I dont know what I feel
But it aches and it hurts and it burns
Oh it kills me
Tick tock you dont stop
You dont fade
You just stay
But Ill do it all again
Now you dont call me baby
Just dont pretend you care
Save your sorry for yourself
When Judas takes you there
Once I really believed
There was nothing out there for the lost and lonely
But a voice in my head kept banging on my heart
Says your not the only one
But it kills me
Tick tock you dont stop
You dont fade
You just stay
But Ill do it all again
But it kills me
i just dont know what to do anymore... how do i meand a broken heart with someone who has broken it so bad?
was he thinking this when he ruined my valentines day yesterday? was he thinking this when he ruined our 1 and only first anniversary? this first anniversary that only comes ONCE!?
that he has basically ruined the whole fucking year weve been married?
does he really think that this stupid little shit is really going to make all things better? like im supposed to just be like OH OK HE LOVES ME!
bullshit, if he loved me he wouldnt do the same damn thing to me over and over and over again and each time say the same thing, and end up doing it again anyways...
and to tell me he feels DEPRIVED??? does he not know what im going through? hearing him say that made me wanna die right then and there... deprived... cause its my fault im pregnant... i musta gone and done it myself...
THEN TO SAY HES ADDICTED??? if hes addicted maybe he should get some god damn help... or better yet maybe i should go sleep around get pregnant by a few other guys in the next few years and tell him i cant help it... IM ADDICTED... see how that feels for him...
this last year being married i cant really remember a time where he really showed me how much he loved me if it didnt involv him fucking up and hurting me... SO I HAVE TO BE HURT for him to show me how much i mean to him...
Im pregnant with HIS FUCKING CHILD and this whole time ive never felt the support from him that i should, sure he says he loves me... a million times a day... to be honest it gets annoying to hear it the same way every 10 minutes... i want to feel it...
and maybe if he wasnt such a fucking DICK he wouldnt feel "DEPRIVED"
maybe if he was there emotionally supporting me and showing me how much he loves me each and every day, i wouldnt be the greedy bitch he must see me as...
but why would i want to do anything to please him? when im not happy myself?
it hurts me so much right now that i honestly wish i wasnt pregnant with his child, it would be so much easier to leave him, and i believe thats what i should do to atleast make myself happy,
it aches and it burns that marriage is supposed to be happy but i dont really remember being happy this last year...
before i married adam i was always happy, he made me feel so great,
its pretty damn sad when id rather spend time with zoe because adam bores me, hurts me and makes me feel unloved.
hes never been involved with this pregnancy, i feel as if its all me... when i ask him a important thing about this i feel as if he could care less if we had the baby or not...
he never comes out and says "i was thinking of doing this for the baby" or " what do yout hink about this name"
its always me and the answer i always get BURNS A HOLE IN MY HEART EACH AND EVER TIME
i honestly feel if he doesnt change, i will never be truley happy, and to never be happy is just not right... ive had too much shit in my life to not be happy now...
and if leaving adam is something that would make things better in the long run i just might have to do that.
it would hurt cause i love him more then anything...
but whats the point of staying with someone who always hurts me and makes me feel like this?
i wouldnt even be this hurt about this if it were 2 weeks from now... but for him to hurt me like this the day before valentines day and 2 days before our first anniversary? kills me... it hurts, hes ruined it for me...and i cant even look at him right now... i will break down crying... i feel like smashing his heart in and stomping on it over and over again to show him how he makes me feel, i feel like screaming at him, but i cant... i cant cause myself any more stress, im 10 weeks away from having our baby, and stress would just hurt things worse....
i just dont know what to do... it hurts to go on not looking at him and making very little contact with him, but i just cant talk to him... i cant even look at him,and when i hear him say he loves me it hurts... shouldnt being told your loved feel good? how can i believe him? i dont believe a word he says...
hes done this to me so many times...swears he wont do it again and ends up doing it anyways...
if he really loved me he wouldnt do this shit.
if he really loved me this last year of marriage wouldnt feel like a waist of time to me,
if he really loved me i wouldnt be feeling the way i do...
if he really loved me he would know a card and flowers is not going to make anything better...
id rather him not get me anything, because getting gay ass crap like this to say your sorry hurts...
my feelings and my broken heart can not be bought to make me feel better
right now i have a song stuck in my head its basically how i feel
Lets say Im feeling better
Lets say Im feeling fine
Lets say I gave you all I had
And now Im out of time
And my best wasnt good enough
And now this time to wonder
Now this time to heal
Time to let it all come down
But I dont know what I feel
But it aches and it hurts and it burns
Oh it kills me
Tick tock you dont stop
You dont fade
You just stay
But Ill do it all again
Now you dont call me baby
Just dont pretend you care
Save your sorry for yourself
When Judas takes you there
Once I really believed
There was nothing out there for the lost and lonely
But a voice in my head kept banging on my heart
Says your not the only one
But it kills me
Tick tock you dont stop
You dont fade
You just stay
But Ill do it all again
But it kills me
i just dont know what to do anymore... how do i meand a broken heart with someone who has broken it so bad?