i cant do this.
i cant take it. the stress is really getting to me. i have so much shit to do before tommorow that this is the last thing i should be doing. but i need to vent. here i am so proud of myself for not talking to logan and he doesnt care...he doesnt even try to talk to me...doesnt make one effort. he broke him promise. he promised me that he would try his absolute hardest to be better...well guess what? that was almost 2 weeks ago and he hasnt done shit. he doesnt care to talk to me at all. and that fucking kills me inside. really? what did i do wrong to deserve all the heartache ive gotten in my life?
~Brandon, i broke his heart because of my friends and then realized i was wrong and then he broke mine.
~Drew, we wont even go there, i could write all day long. you took my heart and crushed it. not one time, not 2 times, but 3 times, first breaking up with me, then getting back with me and then ignring me for a month. then 2 fucking years later when i tell you that i am still totally and completely in love with you, you tell me our relationship meant nothing to you and you never meant anything you said. you told me you loved me. it took me all the way up to halfway through senior year to get over you and if you hadnt been at school then i probably still would be.
~Dustin, i never realized why when i saw you i got really nervous and always had a smile on my face untill senior year, i got the courage to tell you, finally, i thought it could work. we went out on a date and you treated me like a princess. but then ignored me, but then everything was ok again. well finally the day before i leave for 4 months you tell me you're in love with me too. perfect timing. really fabulous, its ok we can make it work. NOT. you stoped calling after 2 weeks. then i went home, saw you. it was perfect again. now because of some stupid fling you wont talk to me. i made a mistake. people do that. its so hard to miss someone.
and of course..
~Logan, now i did not love you and i was def not in love with you, but you showed me things i never knew before and a lot of my firsts were with you. you treated me like a princess and everyone was jealous. then what happened? all of a sudden i wasnt good enough and you were distant. its ok we got over that and it was fine. came back from thanksgiving break where we talked everyday and said how much we missed each other. it was good again. then once again you were distant. but you had good reason to be. you should have came to talk to me sooner then you did though becasue i couldve helped you. you were ok...pretty good actually and i was gonna miss you so much for winter break. the night before, you were no where to be found until 4 am. and i couldnt sleep because i was so hurt. well you made it all better because you're good at that and then we talked every day over break except one. one sunday. well who knows what happened but someone got laid. and it wasnt me. but it was ok, we didnt have to talk everyday and i didnt know at the time what was going on. well we get back to school. i didnt see you for 2 days...you finally saw me and said how stupid you were and you didnt realize how much u missed me till u were with me. i believed it. everything was not good. i mean it was ok but u were being weird. well one weekend you made it all better when we hung out that whole weekend. one of you're best friends even told me that you really liked me and would only listen to me at that time. bullshit. i listened i did everything for you. but then you were distant again. i needed you that wednesday and you chose to listen to jessica instead of me. so u left. i was crushed. and pissed. i made out with 2 random people that night and didnt care...till the next day. i was hurt by you and then i founf out u slept with some whore at app....then you texted me to tell me how much u miss me and non stop that whole weekend. well u lied. clearly...i was crushed. i screamed at you and cryed and did anything i could to make you feel horrible. well all you had to was kiss me and i was hooked again. and i made you promise once again to be better. well we hung out. i saw you and it seemed to be ok. then it wasnt. you stopped calling. you went to the social with some other girl. then called me the next day for vday and i fucking fell for it and i stayed with you. i havent seen you since. yeah in coulter for 2 seconds. but thats it. i dont get texts or anything. no effort to see me. and you're the one that fucked up but i blame it on myself. i shouldve listened...and you proved the fact that guys are assholes and you cant trust anyone. well its over. i HAVE to move on...i just have to. my heart has been through enough.
~Brandon, i broke his heart because of my friends and then realized i was wrong and then he broke mine.
~Drew, we wont even go there, i could write all day long. you took my heart and crushed it. not one time, not 2 times, but 3 times, first breaking up with me, then getting back with me and then ignring me for a month. then 2 fucking years later when i tell you that i am still totally and completely in love with you, you tell me our relationship meant nothing to you and you never meant anything you said. you told me you loved me. it took me all the way up to halfway through senior year to get over you and if you hadnt been at school then i probably still would be.
~Dustin, i never realized why when i saw you i got really nervous and always had a smile on my face untill senior year, i got the courage to tell you, finally, i thought it could work. we went out on a date and you treated me like a princess. but then ignored me, but then everything was ok again. well finally the day before i leave for 4 months you tell me you're in love with me too. perfect timing. really fabulous, its ok we can make it work. NOT. you stoped calling after 2 weeks. then i went home, saw you. it was perfect again. now because of some stupid fling you wont talk to me. i made a mistake. people do that. its so hard to miss someone.
and of course..
~Logan, now i did not love you and i was def not in love with you, but you showed me things i never knew before and a lot of my firsts were with you. you treated me like a princess and everyone was jealous. then what happened? all of a sudden i wasnt good enough and you were distant. its ok we got over that and it was fine. came back from thanksgiving break where we talked everyday and said how much we missed each other. it was good again. then once again you were distant. but you had good reason to be. you should have came to talk to me sooner then you did though becasue i couldve helped you. you were ok...pretty good actually and i was gonna miss you so much for winter break. the night before, you were no where to be found until 4 am. and i couldnt sleep because i was so hurt. well you made it all better because you're good at that and then we talked every day over break except one. one sunday. well who knows what happened but someone got laid. and it wasnt me. but it was ok, we didnt have to talk everyday and i didnt know at the time what was going on. well we get back to school. i didnt see you for 2 days...you finally saw me and said how stupid you were and you didnt realize how much u missed me till u were with me. i believed it. everything was not good. i mean it was ok but u were being weird. well one weekend you made it all better when we hung out that whole weekend. one of you're best friends even told me that you really liked me and would only listen to me at that time. bullshit. i listened i did everything for you. but then you were distant again. i needed you that wednesday and you chose to listen to jessica instead of me. so u left. i was crushed. and pissed. i made out with 2 random people that night and didnt care...till the next day. i was hurt by you and then i founf out u slept with some whore at app....then you texted me to tell me how much u miss me and non stop that whole weekend. well u lied. clearly...i was crushed. i screamed at you and cryed and did anything i could to make you feel horrible. well all you had to was kiss me and i was hooked again. and i made you promise once again to be better. well we hung out. i saw you and it seemed to be ok. then it wasnt. you stopped calling. you went to the social with some other girl. then called me the next day for vday and i fucking fell for it and i stayed with you. i havent seen you since. yeah in coulter for 2 seconds. but thats it. i dont get texts or anything. no effort to see me. and you're the one that fucked up but i blame it on myself. i shouldve listened...and you proved the fact that guys are assholes and you cant trust anyone. well its over. i HAVE to move on...i just have to. my heart has been through enough.