WHY???
i told drew i didnt want him. yeah i did. last night. i was drunk. well thats outta the way. so who the fuck is sarah dunn??? oh yeah. logans new girl. well bitch if you have new fucking girl leave me the fuck alone. stop texting me stop calling me stop fucking looking at me!!! and she is ugly! hello??? UGLY! i dont get it. why? and why the hell when he calls me on valentines day and says "baby, come over" i come running and we watch shakespere in love and then i stay with you that night. how does that work??? why do i do this to myself? why? im proud of myself today though. i did not text him once....and here come 8:00 and he texts me "Hey hunny. whats up" and i say nothing u? and he says hanging out. well instead of trying to make conversation like always i simply say awesome. like he constantly does. and that was it. havent talked to him since. well last night i was pretty pissed. not at logan really well i mean that probably didnt help. but i was about to beat some bitch's ass and i really wanted to. well no one would let me get near her and i ended up just punching the telophone poll and i started bleeding on my knuckles and today they fucking kill. and are all swollen. and i think i broke one. fuck. im a dumbass. and i made out with scott for like 5 seconds. that will be so akward come monday. soooo akward. oh well. i wish he would text me again. WHAT AM I SAYING??? no i dont. i want to get over him. i wish i could...i know someone that likes me who i super sweet and im actually really good friends with him. but i am not ready for a relationship right now. it takes me so long to get over guys cuz i always fall so hard so fast. it took me 2 months to get over corey and we dated for 5 days. 5 days!!! we'll see how long this takes. i dont have forever. i just wish i culd be over it now, so i could stop crying and just have fun. yeah right.
"I want to hate you, so bad."
"I want to hate you, so bad."