Well, shit.
The new housemate has no money for rent, so he'll be moving out. fuck my life, fuck it hard. Mike and I are starting to look for another place that we can afford without housemates, because goddamnit people! I can't support every fucking stinking deadbeat and unlucky ass in madison! If previous failure at housemate hadn't been a total money suck I would have more options, but as it is... well, when (if! geebuz, the way things are going) I get my Income tax refund, like in February, I'll have someting in savings to use as a down payment on a house the size of a cracker box. I can't keep doing this. I just can't. Rent is the size of a house payment anyway so why the hell not?
Fuck it all, I work for a living and can't get ahead. I can't get a loan. I can barely keep up with the housework because I have nothing left after I get done with work. Most days I feel like hell, and i can't even drink to dull the pain because the liver has decided to quit processing extra toxins, like any of my damn meds, so alcohol is right the fuck off the boards as an option. The goddamn weight refuses to come off, and I can't wait for the new health insurance to kick in so I can maybe see a doctor who WONT tell me this is all in my head and I should quit bitching because other people are worse off than I am. (yes, said cunt of a doctor got reported both to her supervisor and the Press/Gainey survey I lucked into. bitch.)
I'm goddamn tired of being a responsible adult. It hasnt paid off for me at all. I'm over 40 and I have dick to show for everything I've ever done. I HAVE NOTHING. My paid off car is starting to fall apart. I can't even drive the damn thing because my head is too fucked up for me to drive safely! My body is failing in the grossest way possible. My kid is happier with her friends or her dad.
Fuck it. I'm going to go sew some more.
Fuck it all, I work for a living and can't get ahead. I can't get a loan. I can barely keep up with the housework because I have nothing left after I get done with work. Most days I feel like hell, and i can't even drink to dull the pain because the liver has decided to quit processing extra toxins, like any of my damn meds, so alcohol is right the fuck off the boards as an option. The goddamn weight refuses to come off, and I can't wait for the new health insurance to kick in so I can maybe see a doctor who WONT tell me this is all in my head and I should quit bitching because other people are worse off than I am. (yes, said cunt of a doctor got reported both to her supervisor and the Press/Gainey survey I lucked into. bitch.)
I'm goddamn tired of being a responsible adult. It hasnt paid off for me at all. I'm over 40 and I have dick to show for everything I've ever done. I HAVE NOTHING. My paid off car is starting to fall apart. I can't even drive the damn thing because my head is too fucked up for me to drive safely! My body is failing in the grossest way possible. My kid is happier with her friends or her dad.
Fuck it. I'm going to go sew some more.