Changes
My daughter starts high school this thursday. High School! Holy shit, how did this happen? Where did the time go? She's so funny and sweet and smart, and... well, I feel like I won the lottery when I look at my kid. She's so amazing. So very wonderful.
So I hope you all understand my odd sorrow tonight. She let me hug her, but wouldn't let me tuck her in. "Mom, I'm too old for that now. I still love ya."
It's age appropriate. It's normal. Hell, setting boundaries is good for her, and this is perfectly fine, and good, and right. Part of the way life progresses.
but she's not my little beebee anymore, and I'm going to miss that, forever. She's gathering her strength, testing the air and her wings, and soon, too soon, she's off into the future, the one that she's going to make for herself.
and I'll be here. Watching her fly away. and this, this night, was the first real step to being totally independent, that she's taken. and right now I feel very old, and faded. and more than a little sad to see the first of many strings get cut so she can fly free, and very damn determined that I never ever try to hold her back.
Forward. Always, Forward.
So I hope you all understand my odd sorrow tonight. She let me hug her, but wouldn't let me tuck her in. "Mom, I'm too old for that now. I still love ya."
It's age appropriate. It's normal. Hell, setting boundaries is good for her, and this is perfectly fine, and good, and right. Part of the way life progresses.
but she's not my little beebee anymore, and I'm going to miss that, forever. She's gathering her strength, testing the air and her wings, and soon, too soon, she's off into the future, the one that she's going to make for herself.
and I'll be here. Watching her fly away. and this, this night, was the first real step to being totally independent, that she's taken. and right now I feel very old, and faded. and more than a little sad to see the first of many strings get cut so she can fly free, and very damn determined that I never ever try to hold her back.
Forward. Always, Forward.