Life...
Ok so I sat here eating a pint of ice cream because my day really sucked monkey balls.
Ryan practically declared today that he loves me and there isn't another guy for him and all this b.s. and then I come home and get in a myspace "argument" with one of his little boyfriends. I really don't have time for his drama. I mean it's like a whole list of lies and I really wish I could get over him and not have to deal with this bullshit any longer. Sadly I don't think you have a say in who you really love and who you don't.
The senior meeting today was the most annoying thing i've done in a while and honestly all the added stress isn't really needed on my life and I kinda wish I could just crawl in a hole and hang out till graduation and then move into my apartment and never deal with this High School drama again. Ok so I was talking to Karla and Mariam about what I should do with the whole apartment thing whether I should get a room mate or just live alone and they both agreed that I should live alone, so I am going to need a new job. LIke NOW!!! Still wish I had a room-mate cause then I know I would always have someone to come home to or look forward to seeing when I got home. idk... I would say that I have plenty of time, but I don't think I do, I mean it's March and I'll be moving in in July so that's only 4 months. Guess we'll see what happens....
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My mom is tripping about making sure I am going to graduate and honestly I have the same fear she does. Last semester was completely awful for me. I can't believe I let things get as bad as they did. Anyway this semester is great for the most part I understand everything that's going on and we're planning all these senior events.
As far as next year go, my mom is moving in July to Virginia and that means that everyone that I really care about will be leaving this summer. And to add more annoyance to me having to get used to being alone, is that I don't think the room-mate thing is going to work out with anyone. It's weird that I went from having three room-mates to not having one. Idk, maybe it'll be easier not having a room-mate to deal with and everything. Even though it would be weird coming home to an empty apartment everyday after living with my mom and sisters.
I started writing a new novel about Senior year hear at Knightdale and I gave everyone a really random new name. I wonder how long it'll take a few people to figure who they are. Even though the story lines will be the same just with different names.
Anyway this is my post for the day...
Ryan practically declared today that he loves me and there isn't another guy for him and all this b.s. and then I come home and get in a myspace "argument" with one of his little boyfriends. I really don't have time for his drama. I mean it's like a whole list of lies and I really wish I could get over him and not have to deal with this bullshit any longer. Sadly I don't think you have a say in who you really love and who you don't.
The senior meeting today was the most annoying thing i've done in a while and honestly all the added stress isn't really needed on my life and I kinda wish I could just crawl in a hole and hang out till graduation and then move into my apartment and never deal with this High School drama again. Ok so I was talking to Karla and Mariam about what I should do with the whole apartment thing whether I should get a room mate or just live alone and they both agreed that I should live alone, so I am going to need a new job. LIke NOW!!! Still wish I had a room-mate cause then I know I would always have someone to come home to or look forward to seeing when I got home. idk... I would say that I have plenty of time, but I don't think I do, I mean it's March and I'll be moving in in July so that's only 4 months. Guess we'll see what happens....
~*~ ~*~ ~*~ ~*~ ~*~ ~*~ ~*~ ~*~
My mom is tripping about making sure I am going to graduate and honestly I have the same fear she does. Last semester was completely awful for me. I can't believe I let things get as bad as they did. Anyway this semester is great for the most part I understand everything that's going on and we're planning all these senior events.
As far as next year go, my mom is moving in July to Virginia and that means that everyone that I really care about will be leaving this summer. And to add more annoyance to me having to get used to being alone, is that I don't think the room-mate thing is going to work out with anyone. It's weird that I went from having three room-mates to not having one. Idk, maybe it'll be easier not having a room-mate to deal with and everything. Even though it would be weird coming home to an empty apartment everyday after living with my mom and sisters.
I started writing a new novel about Senior year hear at Knightdale and I gave everyone a really random new name. I wonder how long it'll take a few people to figure who they are. Even though the story lines will be the same just with different names.
Anyway this is my post for the day...