I don't understand, and I don't know how to take the short route.

[naughty_kitty9]

I don't understand (rationally, logically) why I should be bothered/hurt by things I cannot change...

But I am. And I do. And its' that bitter, twisting, poisoning hurt snake that eats; I'd take the good old fashioned maddened thunderstorm anyday.

...Nor do I understand why whining about it should make it better.

Go figure.

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[thepeajay]

What happens when you can't quit an obsession?

It eats you. But the key is always the root, dearest big sis. It's always the root.

That well of obsession flows from the bitterness because there is something you either haven't let go of or something gotten to the bottom of. No amount of verbal or situational closure can come close to the closure you get when you eradicate the root. It's hard because you have memories tied to the pain and bitterness of the situation, but you haven't to remember to place them in the past. It's all in your imagination. All there is, IS the Now.

The whining is only a way of either venting your anger into the world around you, so that you can find some similairty or some empathy from others in existance. However, I think this pertains to alot of people with the writing touch, the words and thought processess that come with those words aid us in our quest to find and eradicate the root.

Voodoolimbo is right. Something will change as a result. If you let it devour you, something can be lost. You mentioned to me a certain disconnection, and obsession and/or something that is eating at you can be a wall against that connection. So dig up the root, and eat it.

Also, taking the short root isn't always the best route, I know that it is hard to be able to take small steps but when you eradicate something fully, by taking the time to do so, the outcome is even more gratifying and powerful. The "Long" route isn't really long sometimes, it's just through. It took me almost a year to figure out that I didn't have to have guilt for feeling negative emotions. I still feel the guilt, which I hope to change soon, but that was a big 'small' step.

You always have my ear, bebe. And my thought lines to help. I won't get tired of it.