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Everything is going great...class, friends, organizations, the apartment, etc. I went to an Obama rally today and it was AMAZING. This weekend promises to be beautiful weather (90s, no rain) and hopefully I'll go to the beach.
But I can't concentrate right now...why is it that I crave a significant other? A man in my life? Why do I need that to be complete?
I read this article in my anthro class about foreign female med residents that had adverse effects from putting camphor in their food. They did it to curb their sexual appetite so they could focus on school. Is there something like that that I can take that won't make me sick? I think it is just that time in the month, the week before where I eat a lot of chocolate, sometimes cry, like to watch sappy movies and listen to sappy music.
Argh, I need to get over this to stop making me and others crazy. I've forgotten this part of being single. But plenty of single people aren't this way. I wish I wasn't so dependent. I'm sure time will make it better.
I don't things will work out with Steve. He forgot our first date and then we had to cancel the second one because of the USF football game. He's made no attempt to reschedule and he's treating me more and more like a friend. Which is fine, since I value that friendship but I really think there is still something there but we are too afraid of it. I really just want to go out with somebody intelligent and mildly attractive. Just to have fun and have that interaction but no matter how cute I dress for class, no dates yet (lol). We'll see...I need to get back to h/w that isn't due but I sort of imposed my own deadlines. I really should get more sleep but...meh...
But I can't concentrate right now...why is it that I crave a significant other? A man in my life? Why do I need that to be complete?
I read this article in my anthro class about foreign female med residents that had adverse effects from putting camphor in their food. They did it to curb their sexual appetite so they could focus on school. Is there something like that that I can take that won't make me sick? I think it is just that time in the month, the week before where I eat a lot of chocolate, sometimes cry, like to watch sappy movies and listen to sappy music.
Argh, I need to get over this to stop making me and others crazy. I've forgotten this part of being single. But plenty of single people aren't this way. I wish I wasn't so dependent. I'm sure time will make it better.
I don't things will work out with Steve. He forgot our first date and then we had to cancel the second one because of the USF football game. He's made no attempt to reschedule and he's treating me more and more like a friend. Which is fine, since I value that friendship but I really think there is still something there but we are too afraid of it. I really just want to go out with somebody intelligent and mildly attractive. Just to have fun and have that interaction but no matter how cute I dress for class, no dates yet (lol). We'll see...I need to get back to h/w that isn't due but I sort of imposed my own deadlines. I really should get more sleep but...meh...