A sudden sense of sinking
It was just a pause in thought to concentrate on immediate, mundane matters like money and school. Just keeping things together. Now, I can't remember why exactly I'm going the way I'm going, and even the boring things are getting out of hand. I have this nagging feeling that I misplaced a set of ambitions and goals somewhere...
I've been thinking about these things mainly because I'm noticing a lot of change around me... and it has become hard to separate myself from that changing current. This means that I'm floating along on borrowed momentum. So before I freak out and thrash around wildly in a loss-of-self crisis, I really just need to remember what I used to think was important and why.
Gonna be sitting here for a long time I think.
I've been thinking about these things mainly because I'm noticing a lot of change around me... and it has become hard to separate myself from that changing current. This means that I'm floating along on borrowed momentum. So before I freak out and thrash around wildly in a loss-of-self crisis, I really just need to remember what I used to think was important and why.
Gonna be sitting here for a long time I think.