Physical
So I had my "Women's Wellness Checkup" today... you can guess what that entailed. My problem is that I weighed in at 167 lbs... thats not cool AT ALL.
I don't want to change... I know I'm not fat, but I don't want to be rounder, like I am. My thighs are touching when I walk, and my stomach sticks out and isn't anywhere near flat. There's stretch marks on my thighs.... its really very depressing.
I know part of it is picking out foods I need to cut out or cut down on. I've already cut out soda, and I have the 100 calorie pack snacks rather than junk food. But I don't know what else to do food-wise, and I don't have a huge about of time to work out!
I'm sure some of this is a mild depression about Josh, and the lack of relationship action at all. But the only way I'll feel better about meeting someone is if I feel better about myself, and so it's just a vicious circle.
I'm just kinda here right now. Not really passionate about anything. I get up, go to the Chiropractor or a doctor's appointment, go to work, come home about 7:30pm, eat dinner, and try to do something like working out or chores or scrapbook. Then I go to bed by 11pm. That's all.
I'm tired of bitching about this.. I know I sound whiny about everything but I haven't figured out what else to do. I'm going to the Chiropractor to get my body to feel better. But there's no way to make my emotions feel better because there's no way to meet guys! Can't date at work, can't make it to swing dancing on Monday's anymore. Weekends in Phoenix = College students! I graduated! What else is there??
I don't want to change... I know I'm not fat, but I don't want to be rounder, like I am. My thighs are touching when I walk, and my stomach sticks out and isn't anywhere near flat. There's stretch marks on my thighs.... its really very depressing.
I know part of it is picking out foods I need to cut out or cut down on. I've already cut out soda, and I have the 100 calorie pack snacks rather than junk food. But I don't know what else to do food-wise, and I don't have a huge about of time to work out!
I'm sure some of this is a mild depression about Josh, and the lack of relationship action at all. But the only way I'll feel better about meeting someone is if I feel better about myself, and so it's just a vicious circle.
I'm just kinda here right now. Not really passionate about anything. I get up, go to the Chiropractor or a doctor's appointment, go to work, come home about 7:30pm, eat dinner, and try to do something like working out or chores or scrapbook. Then I go to bed by 11pm. That's all.
I'm tired of bitching about this.. I know I sound whiny about everything but I haven't figured out what else to do. I'm going to the Chiropractor to get my body to feel better. But there's no way to make my emotions feel better because there's no way to meet guys! Can't date at work, can't make it to swing dancing on Monday's anymore. Weekends in Phoenix = College students! I graduated! What else is there??