Why?
Why do u do this too me, ive done fuck all to u, wat just cuz u decide to get drunk u think im willing to take all ure shit!, ooft you cinfuse me so so much, one minuite u say u love me nd nothin will ever change that, the next im lyin at the bottom of the stairs while ure screamin at me nd creating more bruises on my skin!, ure such a cunt, nd cuz of u im so unconfident, depressed nd u no wats the most stupidest thing about everythin?... i actually believe every word u say - u say no one likes me nd there just pretendin wen they say they do - so i believed that nd now i can hardly trust any1, u sed no one wud ever love me nd my friends werent really my friends nd i believed that nd wanted to kill myself, i cant help it! i just automatically belive you cuz ure my so called dad nd arnt u supposed to be truthful?, maybe u are tellin me the truth - see there i go agen - uve got me so fucked up its unbelieveable nd i cant stand it anymore, Why did it all change!??? you used to be my fevourite person in the whole world!, you were the best dad ever!! i looked up to you!, i felt safe wen i was around you, and now look at me, im sitting here while ure in the other room cryin my eyes out nd shakein incase u decide you feel like a fight!, nd u no i wont fight bk!, nd u no i wud never get help or anythin, why cant it go bk to the way it used to be, wen u were my hero nd i loved you, but i guess its too late, What did i do to desevrve this, i really cant think y it all had to change!? i was happy!, nd u took that all away nd made me question everythin about my life, nd u still make me do it!, nd you act surprised wen im ill cuz ive took an overdose or wen u see the cuts on my arms, you ask wats up, like you dont fuckin no, then you try nd blame it on my friends nd say i dont them - well guess wat i do need them there the only ones that are keepin me alive!, omg i just want to get out of this house nd get out of ure life - just like you always wished! I hate you do u no that i hate you!, nd even thats a fuckin lie! i dont hate you i just hate the fact that i cant hate you that after all of this nd the years of this happenin i still think of u as the person i look up to nd the dad i once new nd loved nd thats wat annoyes me the most!, after all this.... I still love you the same as wat i once did...