Time for Junbi (Preparations)

[naturesgift]

Upon contacting the art history department in the University of Syracuse, I made an important decision in my life: I am ready to continue my education. I know I do not have the money ｔｏ purse ６ more years of college, but I do know that I can get a nice scholarship. I know that when Iｔｒｕｌｙ desire something, I do what I can to attain it. Im always hungry to fulfill my passions. ａｎｄ at the moment, I want nothing more to be tucked away in an art history library , absorbing all the possible books on Artemesia Gentileschi , Carvaggio and the Baroque period. That would keep me occupied for twenty years down the road!!! I just know that I need to be constantly be intelletually stimulated in order to feel alive. Ｍｙ　experience in Japan has only stimulated the adventurous and curious side of me. Ｉｎ　ｏｒｄｅｒ　ｔｏ　ｂｅ　ｉｎｔｅｌｌｅｃｔｕａｌｌｙ stimulated here, Iwould need to fluently speak Japanese. at the moment, I can get by nicely, but not with ease. For instance, I went to join a gym yesterday and of course, they did not know english. i went with my japanese friend who was able to translate somethings to me...but my friend kind of left halfway throughout the explanation of the facilities...thereby leavingme with a lady who was speaking rapid japanese. i ｗａｓ able to understand most of what she was telling me though, which is why I know my Japanese is not too bad. comprehension is not the biggest problem in my japanese abilty, but rather speech. I have a hard time Ｅｘｐｒｅｓｓｉｎｇ myself in japanese...or even in english!!lol.
anyhows, I know that I really want to stay here another year. the only thing that is stoppingme from doingso is that im lacking some necessary components here to make me feel wholesome such as family warmth, emotional stimulation and genuine friendship.