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Well it hasnt' been a week yet but I thought i'd ramble a bit again while i've got the time! ;) Yeah, i'm at work again...nuff' said!
So my sister's husband came back from his 5 week business trip to India. He got back late last night and now my sister's back home for good. I"m glad he's back, yet sad that my sister left. She was staying at my Gram's during the week and was a HUGE help with Gram's baths, dinner, and distracting Gram while I did my duties. I was really glad to have her there. She was someone to make things easier, to laugh with, and to banter with Gram with. Sometimes at dinner, all three of us kids and Gram would joke and laugh. Sometimes we'd kind of make fun of Gram, but yet, she had no clue and it helped make it easier for us. It's so much harder with just Gram and me. I find it harder to laugh and I have less patience. I"m essentially alone now with her gone since my brother does nothing to help. So it is hard to get used to no longer having the help. And meanwhile my brother is talking of hopes to move out by January with his friend and our cousin. And then i'll really be alone. I really don't know if I'll be able to stand it, but what I hope will get me through is to know that sometime next year, Roger will save me! ;) All in proper timing I guess...I just wish he'd hurry up! Hehehe.
I'm excited for gun season to begin this Saturday! Just a bit nervous though at the numbers of other hunters with guns that will be in the woods too. It'll be dangerous! I hope and pray we will all be safe. Prayers would be appreciated too :)
I am MAJORLY excited for Christmas now! I've been doing TONS of shopping and am more than halfway done ;) Amy I can't wait to give you your present! Can you think of anything I can give Nathan? I'd like to send him something but i'm sure what. Does he read? Any books he wants or candy he likse?
I've gotten some nice things for Roger, Ken, Legs, and Lisa, and Emily and Josh. Most of my family's done. I'll have that whole week off between Christmas and New Year's and the week is already quite busy! I hope to go home for a few days. Then most likely the 26th i'll be heading up to ROger's to spend time with him and his family. I guess his mom has a Christmas tea every year and she wants me to be there for that! She has all her friends for a fancy tea and Roger dresses up as a waiter and serves us! AAWWW! ;) Then he and I are going with his church to a youth convention in Boston Ma for about 4-5 days! I am excited and nervous too. I know so few of the people. But I've been meeting really nice people though; his church is great. The youth leaders are really cool. Last time I was at Roger's church, we sat with them at the lunch after the service and they were so friendly and really wanted me to come to the trip! And of course Big Pete will be there! ;) I was so thrilled to discover he goes to Roger's church too and he and I have talked quite a bit and now know each other better than when we were in school together! He's loads of fun, and i'm glad he'll be going! :) So he and the youth leaders encouraged Roger and I to go, and so we signed up! I really felt like GOd wanted me to go, I think it'll be good for me. And then i'll get to know people from Roger's church better, since someday it will become MY church! ;) So that'll be my plans for the New Year too. Lots to look forward to!
I know I am HUGELY blessed and have a lot of good things in my life, yet I dont' know why so often I find myself down, or lonely, or discontent, discouraged, angry, bitter, you name it. Some days, like last Friday, I feel SO good and happy and I feel like i'm FINALLY climbing out of the valley. But then the next day I feel down or grumpy or longing for a change and to move away. And then I wonder sometimes if those good days are glimpses that God is giving me of what everyday COULD be like if I were to finally let go the things i'm holding onto and totally live for God. I know my relationship with him needs some MAJOR improvement. I know I need to attend church, I can feel that void in my life more and more. I'm stuck in a rut, I know I can't keep going on with the way I am; my attitudes, my angers, resentments, and inability to give control to God. Maybe those good and peaceful days are glimpses from God and hopefully someday SOON i'll want them bad enough to actually DO something! I just don't know, all I KNow is that I have a lot of good things in my life and a lot going for me, and the only one who is preventing me from experiencing life to the fullest and being happy, is me...
So my sister's husband came back from his 5 week business trip to India. He got back late last night and now my sister's back home for good. I"m glad he's back, yet sad that my sister left. She was staying at my Gram's during the week and was a HUGE help with Gram's baths, dinner, and distracting Gram while I did my duties. I was really glad to have her there. She was someone to make things easier, to laugh with, and to banter with Gram with. Sometimes at dinner, all three of us kids and Gram would joke and laugh. Sometimes we'd kind of make fun of Gram, but yet, she had no clue and it helped make it easier for us. It's so much harder with just Gram and me. I find it harder to laugh and I have less patience. I"m essentially alone now with her gone since my brother does nothing to help. So it is hard to get used to no longer having the help. And meanwhile my brother is talking of hopes to move out by January with his friend and our cousin. And then i'll really be alone. I really don't know if I'll be able to stand it, but what I hope will get me through is to know that sometime next year, Roger will save me! ;) All in proper timing I guess...I just wish he'd hurry up! Hehehe.
I'm excited for gun season to begin this Saturday! Just a bit nervous though at the numbers of other hunters with guns that will be in the woods too. It'll be dangerous! I hope and pray we will all be safe. Prayers would be appreciated too :)
I am MAJORLY excited for Christmas now! I've been doing TONS of shopping and am more than halfway done ;) Amy I can't wait to give you your present! Can you think of anything I can give Nathan? I'd like to send him something but i'm sure what. Does he read? Any books he wants or candy he likse?
I've gotten some nice things for Roger, Ken, Legs, and Lisa, and Emily and Josh. Most of my family's done. I'll have that whole week off between Christmas and New Year's and the week is already quite busy! I hope to go home for a few days. Then most likely the 26th i'll be heading up to ROger's to spend time with him and his family. I guess his mom has a Christmas tea every year and she wants me to be there for that! She has all her friends for a fancy tea and Roger dresses up as a waiter and serves us! AAWWW! ;) Then he and I are going with his church to a youth convention in Boston Ma for about 4-5 days! I am excited and nervous too. I know so few of the people. But I've been meeting really nice people though; his church is great. The youth leaders are really cool. Last time I was at Roger's church, we sat with them at the lunch after the service and they were so friendly and really wanted me to come to the trip! And of course Big Pete will be there! ;) I was so thrilled to discover he goes to Roger's church too and he and I have talked quite a bit and now know each other better than when we were in school together! He's loads of fun, and i'm glad he'll be going! :) So he and the youth leaders encouraged Roger and I to go, and so we signed up! I really felt like GOd wanted me to go, I think it'll be good for me. And then i'll get to know people from Roger's church better, since someday it will become MY church! ;) So that'll be my plans for the New Year too. Lots to look forward to!
I know I am HUGELY blessed and have a lot of good things in my life, yet I dont' know why so often I find myself down, or lonely, or discontent, discouraged, angry, bitter, you name it. Some days, like last Friday, I feel SO good and happy and I feel like i'm FINALLY climbing out of the valley. But then the next day I feel down or grumpy or longing for a change and to move away. And then I wonder sometimes if those good days are glimpses that God is giving me of what everyday COULD be like if I were to finally let go the things i'm holding onto and totally live for God. I know my relationship with him needs some MAJOR improvement. I know I need to attend church, I can feel that void in my life more and more. I'm stuck in a rut, I know I can't keep going on with the way I am; my attitudes, my angers, resentments, and inability to give control to God. Maybe those good and peaceful days are glimpses from God and hopefully someday SOON i'll want them bad enough to actually DO something! I just don't know, all I KNow is that I have a lot of good things in my life and a lot going for me, and the only one who is preventing me from experiencing life to the fullest and being happy, is me...