Amor (what else?)
Wow, it's been forever since I last opened up. I wrote a poem about all the shit that happened to me a couple of months ago but left it at home. I figured I would wait to make another entry after I put that one in, but what the hell--I have an urge to write right now and that little poem isn't going to stop me from expressing myself tonight (or this morning since the sun is rising right now... Wow it's pretty....). I've been spending a lot of time lately with my best friends and we've been doing a lot of awesome things. We've seen a few sunrises, caught a few sunsets, spent hours under the beautiful night sky together, started fires on beaches.... Yes, all's been well lately... for the most part.... It's just that no matter how close I am to my friends, love just has to find a way to sink its longing, warm touch into my heart.... I can't help but imagine how much better an intimate moment such as gazing into the beautiful abyss of the sky would be if only she were there with me.... I can't help but wonder how much more beautiful the diamonds in the sky would appear in her gorgeous brown eyes.... It was kinda ironic the other night when we were under the stars when Incubus' "Wish You Were Here" came on, as if my heart just forced the computer to play that particular song.... I left a note on her door the other night in Latin, "[She] est pulchrior quam Helenis Troiae." She is more beautiful than Helen of Troy.... Whoa this is ironic, since I'm listening to "And Then There Was Silence" by Blind Guardian, which is all about Helen of Troy.... The lyrics "She's like the sunrise/outshines the moon at night/precious like starlight" keeps on running through my head over and over again.... I wonder if she ever read the fucking message, since the next day it was erased.... Oh well what the hell does it matter since I don't have a chance with her anyway? If only I still had Nicalico Katz.... *sigh* It would be so much easier to sleep, holding her cat close to my heart as if it were her in my arms... just the thought of her in my arms makes my heart melt.... *sigh* It doesn't matter--at least I was able to see her beautiful face earlier tonight.... The sun is rising right now and at this moment I can imagine nothing more fulfilling in life than being lost in that gorgeous sky right now with her in my arms....