Longing for my Field Jobs
It seems I get shit no matter where I live anymore. My grandparents are pressuring to get a shit, dead end job because they have a lack of understanding about how this stage in my career works. All they care about is that I have some kind of job and I have money and that I can just snap my fingers and boom I have a new job...some many grammatical things wrong with that sentence but I really don't care to fix it. My mom demands my car for tomorrow even though I had plans...had plans, not anymore, but I'll get to that a bit later. Anyway, my mom is getting her car brought in to get fixed and asked to use mine but I had plans and my grandparents weren't using their one vehicle so I didn't think any thing of it and then today I get shit from all three of them and on top of them they continue to harp on the job issue pissing me off so I leave the house for a couple of hours to get some shopping I needed to get done.
Then to appease them since they think my fiance doesn't help me at all, I call her to see if she can pick me up and then I find out that the plans we had were totally re-arranged by several things. She had off today and tomorrow and I was suppose to see her tomorrow but now I found out she made plans with her friend so she might not have time to pick me up and that the original plans we were going to do might be canceled because her dad is leaving for Africa on Sunday which is actually something I expected but the whole making other plans with a friend when I thought we had plans was not so I am just like why didn't I come for today then? So she said she was going to work something out but I said no, fuck it, don't even bother. I don't want to be bothersome in anyway at which point she new I was at least annoyed.
Now it seems I do have my car and my mom will take the other car....yeah, this shit got tiresome real quick.
Right now, I just want to be alone where no one is making demands on me. This is part of the reason why I want to leave for another Field job quite soon. I missed all these people and these places but all this shit has made it quite tiresome and I long to go back to Nature where She makes no demands on me. Yes, I'll be doing a job but this is all something I enjoy and my boss will put demands on me but they are ones I happily accept because they are save Her, Her which gives so much and has never asked anything in return which is maybe the reason why I want to help Her so much. I get lost in Her forests and it is wonderful as everything from Her creation surrounds me...another reason why I want to save Her. Oh well...