Human damnit, and limits suck
Last Friday I did a tone class with barbells and hand weights. I thought I did okay, but I hurt the next day. And then it continued to kick my butt. I was sore until Sunday! Not as bad as the hip hop class I did with Ashley that time lol, but bad. Then I had an allergy related breathing issue and pulled my right leg muscles trying to work through a cramp. Two miles of charley horse sucked beyond belief. I take from this a humble acknowledgement that I am not superwoman. Damnit!
I want to be fabulous and skinny and instantly a marathon runner. And it is frustrating that it takes time. And patience and slip ups and pulled muscles and working through all the shit that got me here in the first place. Guess that is why it is a process, guess this is why not everyone succeeds. Time to just be at this level and find acceptance until the next level. But it is hard to be here. It is very hard to be in the moment and just acknowledge I am flawed and not where I want to be. There was after all a reason I wanted to change.
My thought process is a sprinter's. I have said it before I'm sure. But what life needs from me is the long game, the marathon of endurance and forethought. I need time and space to gather strength and envision the future. I need forgiveness and regrouping to keep the vision on track. I need to respect my limits, even while working to expand them.
I want to be fabulous and skinny and instantly a marathon runner. And it is frustrating that it takes time. And patience and slip ups and pulled muscles and working through all the shit that got me here in the first place. Guess that is why it is a process, guess this is why not everyone succeeds. Time to just be at this level and find acceptance until the next level. But it is hard to be here. It is very hard to be in the moment and just acknowledge I am flawed and not where I want to be. There was after all a reason I wanted to change.
My thought process is a sprinter's. I have said it before I'm sure. But what life needs from me is the long game, the marathon of endurance and forethought. I need time and space to gather strength and envision the future. I need forgiveness and regrouping to keep the vision on track. I need to respect my limits, even while working to expand them.