as a tear rolls down her cheek

[nature_isawhore]

its all coming back. i haven't slept well in almost a week.
everytime i cry i cant stop, and the tears burn my cheeks as they drop to the ground.
its so hard to beleive.
there are so many things i want to say to him, to ask him.
but i just can't bring myself to even plan to talk to him.
not yet atleast.
my face hurts so bad, i think its swollen.
and it is now time for a cigarette.

i was trying to fall asleep to this movie, called trapped.
i could almost swear courtney love is the girl in it.
it was a good movie.
but since i had my little crying break for an hour, i have absolutly no fucking clue what is going on now. i bought a 3 dollar movie at walmart today..or yesturday i guess..its called phobia. has anyone seen it? actually has anyone even heard of it??
i also got a book called stargirl. we were reading it in 8th grade but never finished.
and i got 2 pairs of jeans and a pink corduroy blazer.
so today wasnt a bad day. it just ended not so good.
i think tomorrow when i wake up i'm going to clean my room.
its starting to bug me finally.
and melanie might stay the night tomorrow. i hope she does.
i need melanie and chivin time really bad.
it'll take my mind off him.
kbye.