A gloomy sunny day
So today is a wonderfully blue day and I have resorted to sitting at home feeling blue. I went on a date yesterday. The first one since I broke up with John. We had breakfast at a wonderful eatery in the historical downtown area of a near by town. It was very awkward because I felt instant chemistry. We hit it off.
After breakfast, we went to an AT&T store to fix my phone, his choice not mine, and then we went back to my place. Let me just say "Fireworks" to save on the crude details, but dang! I never knew it could be that good. Showering commenced and then he had to leave.
He said he really had a great time, as did I.
Here's the kicker. I met him at a bookstore. He lives two hours away, but was in town visiting friends. He is insanely gorgeous, Latin/Pacific Islander mix, and three months prior, he just got out of a six year relationship. I asked him before he left, "How come you and your ex broke up?" His response made me quite depressed to be gay. "It was me. I didn't want to be in a relationship and he wasn't okay with having an open relationship."
He says that he wants to see me again when he comes out my way, and honestly, I would want to see him again too. The thing is that I want a monogamous relationship. He fits every criteria thus far. Very hot, great sex, polite, a nerdy tech kind of guy, nice career, and a beautiful smile. There's just the little problem of not wanting to be with just one person!
This is where being gay bothers me most. I know there are guys who want what I want, but they are few and seldom hard to come by. I tend to think that girls want companions to share in life with while men generally want independence with great sex whenever they can get it. Why can't their be a guy who wants companionship and great sex with the same guy?
Okay, 10 minute time limit is up. I am done ranting. More news to come next week after I have some idea if I still have a job next year or not. (crosses fingers)
After breakfast, we went to an AT&T store to fix my phone, his choice not mine, and then we went back to my place. Let me just say "Fireworks" to save on the crude details, but dang! I never knew it could be that good. Showering commenced and then he had to leave.
He said he really had a great time, as did I.
Here's the kicker. I met him at a bookstore. He lives two hours away, but was in town visiting friends. He is insanely gorgeous, Latin/Pacific Islander mix, and three months prior, he just got out of a six year relationship. I asked him before he left, "How come you and your ex broke up?" His response made me quite depressed to be gay. "It was me. I didn't want to be in a relationship and he wasn't okay with having an open relationship."
He says that he wants to see me again when he comes out my way, and honestly, I would want to see him again too. The thing is that I want a monogamous relationship. He fits every criteria thus far. Very hot, great sex, polite, a nerdy tech kind of guy, nice career, and a beautiful smile. There's just the little problem of not wanting to be with just one person!
This is where being gay bothers me most. I know there are guys who want what I want, but they are few and seldom hard to come by. I tend to think that girls want companions to share in life with while men generally want independence with great sex whenever they can get it. Why can't their be a guy who wants companionship and great sex with the same guy?
Okay, 10 minute time limit is up. I am done ranting. More news to come next week after I have some idea if I still have a job next year or not. (crosses fingers)