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Hey, everyone.
I'm still alive... I imagine that's good to know. School has been more or less eating my life -- I have so much to do, yet what feels like no time at all to get it done. Which is odd, because I know for a fact that I waste far too much time online playing flash games (Evony and Cafe World, the latter on Facebook, are the latest ( Read more... )
I'm still alive... I imagine that's good to know. School has been more or less eating my life -- I have so much to do, yet what feels like no time at all to get it done. Which is odd, because I know for a fact that I waste far too much time online playing flash games (Evony and Cafe World, the latter on Facebook, are the latest ( Read more... )
I think I know exactly what you mean by the first sentence. It wasn't like we wouldn't have been friends anymore or that we didn't have things in common... we just both really had our own shit to deal with that wasn't fun at all. I cared about you still and I know you cared about me, but it's super hard to keep connected at that age when you're going to two different schools anyway, and even harder when a lot is going on in your life.
Do you have a Blogger? That's where I've written a lot about my life and I'd be happy to let you read it. Only a select few can:)
And I'm finally doing okay. I took this semester as a part-time student and I'm working from home on my seminar while I do this intensive (like, 11 hours a day every day for the last 10 weeks) eating disorder program, and it's probably the best thing I could have and have done for myself. I've hated not being at school but really, what else could I do? I sure couldn't deal with the anorexia on my own anymore. It started 7 years ago and I sort of got better, but then in the last year I just got really, really bad off and I thought I could deal with it by myself, but clearly not. I'm finally truly getting better, though. I'm also not dating this asshole I dated for 2.5 years, and I'm with someone new who is wonderful and has been nothing but a help for me.
PHEW... that was a lot! How are YOU? And please know that I really, really do care about you and always have... I feel like although we've not been AS close as we once were, to me, you're still the exact same Ellen as you've always been, and that's the coolest thing.
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I'm glad that your intensive outpatient thing is going well -- I've definitely thought about you a lot lately. I read about the program online and thought it sounded like a good (if a bit overzealous, in my non-educated and non-ed opinion) program that covered lots of bases. It's also amazing how much being with a different partner can change things... although I really loved the person I dated before Screech, she didn't love me as much as she loved who she wanted me to be. Although I definitely benefited from various aspects of that relationship, I'm really glad that I'm out of it.
The brief period of time I spent with Jamie this summer at her (awesome) house in Duluth was totally worth it. Knowing her as a person now (instead of as a teacher) is something I'm really grateful for -- and, as is likely to be expected, we have a lot in common. Oh, right, something else vaguely related: she said that she had recently received a letter from Ms. Komnick in which she inquired about me and whether Jamie knew anything. I found this interesting. Apparently I was one of her (Ms. Komnick's) favorites, although I didn't particularly like her and went out of my way to make class difficult. Hm. I should probably send her an email and let her know what's going on in my life, if she cares enough to ask Jamie several years after we last saw each other.
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The program was DEFINITELY overzealous. I like that description. However, I'm thankful for that... I get very cynical and something it's good for me to be forced to be a little uncomfortable.
What's your email? I have to send you the link for my Blogger, I think. My email for it is kellygarringermaccabe@gmail.com, if you can get to it that way.
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