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I'm not afraid to admit who I am anymore. Before, I thought that if I convinced myself then I would be able to convince everyone else. But I can't do it anymore. Its not a big deal for anyone else, but it is for me because this is the first time in a long time that I can admit who I am. Its nothing in particular, just a couple of small things. If I could choose any job in the world, it would be an artist. The only reason I never pursued it is because there wouldn't be any money in it. That, and the fact that I would never be taken seriously. I mean, Im not even taken seriously now. But there is one thing that I always wanted to do and Im finally doing it. Im taking part in saving wildlife and that makes me very happy. Its not about me, its about something that I consider very important and always have. But even though I have that to be happy about, I feel I'll never get over not going to art school. I guess it just wasn't meant to be.