i've become a very poor student
i've become very undisciplined. i've almost worked hard to become so. i've set up barriers to my own success and i am skilled at rationalizing them.
if someone can call me out on my bullshit i would be ashamed enough to try to fix it, and would start working hard again. mr eiswert did that to me in 9th grade once- he told me i wasn't a quitter and there was no reason i shouldn't be doing better in the class. i think he even said he was disappointed in me. and last year my guitar professor told me that she would work with me, but that in the future and in the real world, if i wasn't prepared i would get chewed up and spit out. that worked for a few days too.
and for some reason, when i started college, i was all about working to my full potential and working hard and doing my best, and i did for the first few months until i realized how easy monmouth was.
just call me out on my bullshit. someone. please. i won't make it through law school if i can't relearn to work hard again and i really don't want a backup plan. i'm meant to go to law school. discipline, responsibility, maturity, self-respect- come back please...
if someone can call me out on my bullshit i would be ashamed enough to try to fix it, and would start working hard again. mr eiswert did that to me in 9th grade once- he told me i wasn't a quitter and there was no reason i shouldn't be doing better in the class. i think he even said he was disappointed in me. and last year my guitar professor told me that she would work with me, but that in the future and in the real world, if i wasn't prepared i would get chewed up and spit out. that worked for a few days too.
and for some reason, when i started college, i was all about working to my full potential and working hard and doing my best, and i did for the first few months until i realized how easy monmouth was.
just call me out on my bullshit. someone. please. i won't make it through law school if i can't relearn to work hard again and i really don't want a backup plan. i'm meant to go to law school. discipline, responsibility, maturity, self-respect- come back please...