The seaweed is always greener in somebody elses lake....
ok....soooo sick of everything right now. I'm totally stressing with school. Cause I only have one more night to do all my work...AHHHH..then I've totally pissed two of my friends off cause they are making me upset...then things are always difficult at home with out a mommy, and my dad is an asshole!!! SO YOU ALL DON"T KNOW WHAT THE HELL I"M GOING THROUGH RIGHT NOW!!!! so FUCK OFF!! seriously. you all think I"m sooo aweful because I have a boyfriend now but guess what you are all the same way! It just naturally happens, of course when we get a boyfriend or a girlfriend you want to spend as much time with them as possible so you REALLY get to know them, of course our friends are going to feel rejected...but shit happens...I understand ashie was upset cause I wasn't spending as much time with her as I used to...but I had to get comfortable with mine and Joel's relationship before I could just back off and know that he's still going to be there without being upset with me for hanging with my friends. and now things are better with me and ashie.
I haven't been close to either of my parents since the divorce because they are both being soooooo stupid! FUCK!! I seriosly wish I had a gun right now to end this misery! I'm going to be happy once I get my own place this summer but I still wish things were the way they were before all this stuff went down. I may put off that's it's not hurting me but it really is...I feel like all my insides were torn out of my body. I"M EMPTY!
school has been soooo stressfull and I am not even finished with it!!! AHHHH you don't even know...I'm scared that I'm going to fall asleep and not get it done....well speaking of which I better go so I can get some more done before I do fall asleep....bye...more updates when I'm all finished with school!
natty
I haven't been close to either of my parents since the divorce because they are both being soooooo stupid! FUCK!! I seriosly wish I had a gun right now to end this misery! I'm going to be happy once I get my own place this summer but I still wish things were the way they were before all this stuff went down. I may put off that's it's not hurting me but it really is...I feel like all my insides were torn out of my body. I"M EMPTY!
school has been soooo stressfull and I am not even finished with it!!! AHHHH you don't even know...I'm scared that I'm going to fall asleep and not get it done....well speaking of which I better go so I can get some more done before I do fall asleep....bye...more updates when I'm all finished with school!
natty