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I miss writing in this journal. I was so busy while at Disney, I hardly had time for my own brain to think. Life is good though, besides this thing in my throat that is freaking me the hell out the past couple weeks. I'm such a hypochondriac. I have a pain for two days or something and I automatically assume the worst.
On a better note, all I can do is smile about Jordan. I am certain that this is the happiest I've ever been in any relationship. I've finally got my head cleared and it's evident what I want now. I can't believe we have already been together for nearly three years. We have had so many highs and so many lows. Our relationship started out rocky and there were more reasons to part ways, than to actually be together. With time, we made it through it, which, in turn created a strong foundation for the loving relationship we have today. I never thought after three years I would still be able to miss someone the second I leave their presence, or get so excited when I wake up knowing I will be able to see them that day. Excitement usually dulls throughout the years, but as time goes on I find myself more eager to spend time with you and create memories to add to our future together. I've always been taught that "boys come and go, but friends always stay." You're the one who showed me different. Friends who I've always confided in treated me poorly, yet you are always there. Every single time. I think when everything really hit me was while I was at Disney. You fought so hard to keep me happy and to prove that we could handle long distance. You never let me down. I would get stranded working late and you would come home from the bar to finish my accounting homework and submit it by midnight. You've inconvenienced yourself on multiple occasions to do something for me. That is love. I have never felt as loved and cared for as the way you make me feel, I've never felt as safe, or as confident in the life I could have with you. It will never be 100% easy for us, ever. But the tough times we'll endure will make us stronger yet again, and lead us to a bright future. I love you, thank you for being my best friend.
On a better note, all I can do is smile about Jordan. I am certain that this is the happiest I've ever been in any relationship. I've finally got my head cleared and it's evident what I want now. I can't believe we have already been together for nearly three years. We have had so many highs and so many lows. Our relationship started out rocky and there were more reasons to part ways, than to actually be together. With time, we made it through it, which, in turn created a strong foundation for the loving relationship we have today. I never thought after three years I would still be able to miss someone the second I leave their presence, or get so excited when I wake up knowing I will be able to see them that day. Excitement usually dulls throughout the years, but as time goes on I find myself more eager to spend time with you and create memories to add to our future together. I've always been taught that "boys come and go, but friends always stay." You're the one who showed me different. Friends who I've always confided in treated me poorly, yet you are always there. Every single time. I think when everything really hit me was while I was at Disney. You fought so hard to keep me happy and to prove that we could handle long distance. You never let me down. I would get stranded working late and you would come home from the bar to finish my accounting homework and submit it by midnight. You've inconvenienced yourself on multiple occasions to do something for me. That is love. I have never felt as loved and cared for as the way you make me feel, I've never felt as safe, or as confident in the life I could have with you. It will never be 100% easy for us, ever. But the tough times we'll endure will make us stronger yet again, and lead us to a bright future. I love you, thank you for being my best friend.