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Sooo meeting up and getting one on one time with you for the first time in months the other day. Can't even justify what type of feelings I had. I was so excited and nervous, and once we were together it was like we never weren't.. You still made your silly faces, and we laughed a lot. The only hard part was telling you my dad had cancer. I don't think I've told anyone in person about it, but at the same time I couldn't tell you in just a text either. When you hugged me goodbye, I didn't even have that dying urge to grab your face like I used to. However, I can't help but wonder what kinds of feelings would have sparked if I did act upon my resisted curious thoughts. I keep thinking about last Saturday and how we texted from 445-6 am on my way home from EL and you drove past my house..an told me to come over.. What would have happened if I would have been home. What would've happened if I made it home in time to come over?! Bittersweet.
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