Changes
I'm trying to make all these changes in my life in an attempt to make myself feel better. I don't even know how I will feel better in some way? what is wrong with me...It is really hard to pinpoint. I don't know if it is a lack of direction, lack of self worth or what.
I wake up every day wishing I was someone else just for one day. I do realise I am pretty lucky and have a job and lovely friends etc but I cant help but wish I was someone else. I feel very alone at the moment, like I am in a pit of dispair trying to climb up without a hand to help me out. I pretend to be happy in front of people all the time, some of it is real because I have moments where I feel really happy. I think most of the sadness happens when I am alone and I have been trying to avoid being alone for that very reason.
I'll be ok though, I know this wont last forever. I just need to get through this and change all those things about myself I really hate.
I wake up every day wishing I was someone else just for one day. I do realise I am pretty lucky and have a job and lovely friends etc but I cant help but wish I was someone else. I feel very alone at the moment, like I am in a pit of dispair trying to climb up without a hand to help me out. I pretend to be happy in front of people all the time, some of it is real because I have moments where I feel really happy. I think most of the sadness happens when I am alone and I have been trying to avoid being alone for that very reason.
I'll be ok though, I know this wont last forever. I just need to get through this and change all those things about myself I really hate.