if I die now

[natta_da]

somehow these days I find hard to understand what I feel or want or desire. maybe because I was forcing myself?
but here and there I hear songs that catch my mood pretty well.

so today it's Friska Vijor "If I Die Now"

www.myspace.com/friskaviljor

I don't think that over this one I found my peace but I was definitely drawn away )
somehow the whole story gets more and more ridiculous and silly in my head.