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i wish i were dead.
if i had a gun, i would be dead. i would have killed myself a long time ago.
i would jump off the 18th fl balcony but i think i'd hit the tree or the fence and not die, or i'd land on someone on the sidewalk.
other options are the third rail + the train, or sleeping pills + bathtub. not sure if that works. sleeping pills don't but in a tub i might drown.
i can't cut my arms, it's too scary.
but a gun.... a gun would be perfect. instant. pull the trigger and you're done. i wouldn't write a letter. no one to say goodbye to. no one i care about. why am i here anyway. what the fuck am i doing.
if i had a gun, i would be dead. i would have killed myself a long time ago.
i would jump off the 18th fl balcony but i think i'd hit the tree or the fence and not die, or i'd land on someone on the sidewalk.
other options are the third rail + the train, or sleeping pills + bathtub. not sure if that works. sleeping pills don't but in a tub i might drown.
i can't cut my arms, it's too scary.
but a gun.... a gun would be perfect. instant. pull the trigger and you're done. i wouldn't write a letter. no one to say goodbye to. no one i care about. why am i here anyway. what the fuck am i doing.