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natsuko1978

The Post I Actually Came Here To Make

Dec 17, 2015 18:24

Following November's medical, the DWP have taken me off the "Work-Related Activity" Group (where they are hoping to be able to get you back to work at some point). Unlike the last medical, where they didn't give me enough points to be on benefits at all and I had to go to appeal, this time they've put me in the "Support" GroupWhen I first signed up ( Read more... )

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penissues December 17 2015, 21:05:31 UTC

Being a "scrounger" myself, actually i scrounge for carers allowance and a paltry income support. But hey better that jsa. I felt i had to say no matter your current inability to get anywhere outside of your house to a work placement, does not as they put it mean that you are not capable of work. It just means that even with the increasing amount of "work from home" people that are out there, the jsa / government people still can't come to terms with it themselves. Basically you can find things to do from home (if you arent already doing those things).

natsuko1978 December 17 2015, 22:49:38 UTC

Okay, I'll engage ( ... )

penissues December 17 2015, 23:34:29 UTC

Thank you for engaging, first off i whole-heartedly apologise for seemingly to judge your condition when i had no idea of your situation. It wasn't intended, I'm not sure i actually did, but i will bow down to you has i cannot see it from your side of things. I further apologise if my reply seems to be saying i'm not guilty of judging you or your circumstance ( i try not to do these things, but i don't always succeed).

I really appreciate you sharing so much of yourself. There's an in-built instinct within me that wants to try and help you, but i know that ultimately i will probably do more harm than good in doing so. I'm not even sure whether i should go any further with my thoughts on what you have told me, that's me worrying about how this has already affected you.

splix December 17 2015, 21:09:13 UTC

It would be a shame if you left. I like knowing you're out there.

I get that the news is depressing to hear. I hope it becomes more of a blessing than not as time passes.

natsuko1978 December 18 2015, 00:03:08 UTC

Thanks, that's sweet, hon. But to be honest, I don't see what's the *point* of me being out here, if I'm not getting anything done, you know? It's not just the writing, it's engaging at any level, even that of leaving comments on people's posts and fics. It's just not been happening.

There has to be some point where I have to accept that things are not working. Doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results, is, after all, the definition of insanity.

splix December 18 2015, 01:02:18 UTC

It's ultimately your decision, of course. But there's no harm in lurking, if that's all you feel you're able to do. Maybe you'll be better prepared to interact somewhere down the road. But again, you have to do what feels right for you. I don't mean to pressure you.

msmoat December 17 2015, 21:34:59 UTC

I don't know, I think you've accomplished quite a lot this year. You've posted pretty regularly--which requires and uses physical and mental resources. You've advocated for people with mental and physical disabilities. You've informed and communicated. You've supported your friends, making their lives brighter. You've found a new fandom (I envy you that one *g*). (Don't shrug! It actually requires quite a bit to fall in love with a new thing!) You made it to and through those appointments in October/November, and worked with the doctor who was determined to take you through it all again on a slim hope (which I'm still hoping for).

Maybe you weren't able to write as much as you'd hoped, but you can carry those goals forward--why not? If you still want to. The only person you're truly answerable to is you. I understand how disheartening (yet relieving) the assessment is. And how you can look back in the year with disappointment. But...from the outside, you're pretty remarkable. *Hugs*

(Oh, and I agree fully with your previous post,

natsuko1978 December 18 2015, 01:02:01 UTC

You've found a new fandom (I envy you that one *g*). (Don't shrug! It actually requires quite a bit to fall in love with a new thing!)

Heh. If only you knew how much I wish I hadn't. Too many fandoms, too many characters, too many ideas. In part because of getyourwordsout and my annual goal, in part because of moods and health and not making things any harder than they have to be, I've let myself write where the inspiration was, rather than what you are supposed to do and choosing ONE project and working on it until you have at least a draft before you pay any attention to the other bouncing idea bunnies ( ... )

fiorenza_a December 18 2015, 00:04:36 UTC

I'm crazy busy at the moment with mostly nice things, but I will get back to you properly on both posts when I've had a chance to read and think about them properly ( ... )

halotolerant December 18 2015, 09:45:49 UTC

I can absolutely understand the mixed feelings about the DWP judgement - not to have the ridiculousness of having to 'prove' yourself to appeal committee is great, but being told 'we don't think you can work at present' has its own attendant stressors, as you say *hugs*

I'm sorry you've been frustrated in achieving your goals this year. From an external perspective (which I know isn't always the point, but it's the one I can give), you do and have made contributions to fandom and LJ life and you're part of our community and we value having you around to whatever extent you can be.

I hope you hear from St Thomas's soon. *hugs*