hello!
i'm just feel sick from the school...i can't take it anymore....my classmate treat me like i'm bad girl...and they feel jealous from me ..i don't know why?...there is no reason for them to hate me that much...i started thinking of killing myself one day ....
i need someone to talk with about these things but who?
anyway....it made me sad that no one cares about me..i want to have someone to share the sadness and the happiness with...no one is ready for that because of their problems too...why no one can live happy ?
i'm afraid of that things that i'm seeing and no one feel it...i'm afraid of something will happen..
i want to be like anyone live in this earth...i want to be like you and you
a small poem;
from megumi hayashibara's songs
I'm Still Waiting
Counting the hours
Time goes by, nothing matters
Sitting alone in the night
Music is playing
Life goes on, but I'm dying
My heart is longing for my lover
The same old table, and the same old dress
I come here everyday and hope that you'll be there
I'm waiting, I'm making conversation to you all by myself
And you'll promise that you'll never leave me
Drowning in memories, too much bourbon and whiskey
I'm still waiting for my lover
See my reflection as I stare out the window
Wishing that you were here tonight
Lost in your shadow in the arms of another
My body's yearning for my lover
They say that I'm crazy, have I lost my mind?
Oh, no, I won't deny that I still love you so
I'm waiting, heart's breaking
I am searching but you're not anywhere
I am praying, won't you come back and free me
No one can save me, only you make me happy
I'm still waiting for my lover
I still remember all the things you said
How your heart was set to never let me go
I'm waiting, am I fading?
Disappearing each time I close my eyes
Did you love me at least once, or was I dreaming?
Working the streets
I don't know where, what am I doing?
I'm still waiting for my lover
Counting the hours
Time goes by, nothing matters
I'm still waiting for my lover
Drowning in memories, too much bourbon and whiskey
I'm still waiting for my lover
I'm still waiting
For my lover
i need someone to talk with about these things but who?
anyway....it made me sad that no one cares about me..i want to have someone to share the sadness and the happiness with...no one is ready for that because of their problems too...why no one can live happy ?
i'm afraid of that things that i'm seeing and no one feel it...i'm afraid of something will happen..
i want to be like anyone live in this earth...i want to be like you and you
a small poem;
from megumi hayashibara's songs
I'm Still Waiting
Counting the hours
Time goes by, nothing matters
Sitting alone in the night
Music is playing
Life goes on, but I'm dying
My heart is longing for my lover
The same old table, and the same old dress
I come here everyday and hope that you'll be there
I'm waiting, I'm making conversation to you all by myself
And you'll promise that you'll never leave me
Drowning in memories, too much bourbon and whiskey
I'm still waiting for my lover
See my reflection as I stare out the window
Wishing that you were here tonight
Lost in your shadow in the arms of another
My body's yearning for my lover
They say that I'm crazy, have I lost my mind?
Oh, no, I won't deny that I still love you so
I'm waiting, heart's breaking
I am searching but you're not anywhere
I am praying, won't you come back and free me
No one can save me, only you make me happy
I'm still waiting for my lover
I still remember all the things you said
How your heart was set to never let me go
I'm waiting, am I fading?
Disappearing each time I close my eyes
Did you love me at least once, or was I dreaming?
Working the streets
I don't know where, what am I doing?
I'm still waiting for my lover
Counting the hours
Time goes by, nothing matters
I'm still waiting for my lover
Drowning in memories, too much bourbon and whiskey
I'm still waiting for my lover
I'm still waiting
For my lover