Valeo Ab Animus
I have come to realize something very important.
I need to be good for myself, before I'm good for someone else.
I refuse to continue allowing myslef to get hurt. I've been spending so many years of my life wondering why I'm still alone, you know. I can't put myself through the wringer anymore. It's done. And I don't know why, but it hit me today. I have to strengthen my character, my soul, my heart, my body, my mind, before I could ever truly be happy.
I have decided to begin practicing Buddhism fully. I'm tired of saying "I'm Buddhist", it's time to start practicing. Meditating, reading, all of it.
I have begun to start appreciating my body, my voice, my face, as tools I will use in my life and career. My body is indeed my temple and it's high time I start treating it as such. No more processed, preservative packed foods. As of last night, I retired all forms of smoking cigarettes. Drugs and alcohol cloud the mind and the body. I need a clear, focused mind and body to achieve my goals.
Balance is key.
I am going to become good. No more fooling myself and others. No more lies. From here on out, I am going to live an honest, peaceful, uncompromised existance. It is my life. No one elses.
One day at a time. I'll get there. Life is too short for me to be displeased with myself for a single day longer. It's time I finally did something about it.
(Segue)Tomorrow, English class, my first day of work, and am sending my application into Opera Carolina to hopefully get some work as a supernumery. We'll see.
To Life, To The Moment
cheers
-Natasha-
I need to be good for myself, before I'm good for someone else.
I refuse to continue allowing myslef to get hurt. I've been spending so many years of my life wondering why I'm still alone, you know. I can't put myself through the wringer anymore. It's done. And I don't know why, but it hit me today. I have to strengthen my character, my soul, my heart, my body, my mind, before I could ever truly be happy.
I have decided to begin practicing Buddhism fully. I'm tired of saying "I'm Buddhist", it's time to start practicing. Meditating, reading, all of it.
I have begun to start appreciating my body, my voice, my face, as tools I will use in my life and career. My body is indeed my temple and it's high time I start treating it as such. No more processed, preservative packed foods. As of last night, I retired all forms of smoking cigarettes. Drugs and alcohol cloud the mind and the body. I need a clear, focused mind and body to achieve my goals.
Balance is key.
I am going to become good. No more fooling myself and others. No more lies. From here on out, I am going to live an honest, peaceful, uncompromised existance. It is my life. No one elses.
One day at a time. I'll get there. Life is too short for me to be displeased with myself for a single day longer. It's time I finally did something about it.
(Segue)Tomorrow, English class, my first day of work, and am sending my application into Opera Carolina to hopefully get some work as a supernumery. We'll see.
To Life, To The Moment
cheers
-Natasha-