Xmas
I got some socks, some cash, a gift card to REI, a sweatshirt, and a new Ipod charger for my shuffle. All in all, not a bad haul.
Should I try to move in with Jack? He seemed like a cool dude. Wild Oats adjacent. A lot closer to school. Not a bad apartment. But it's an apartment.
Please talk me out of moving back here. I have the feeling I will either love it, or really regret it. Although I was doing some math on the school money, and if I get the whole amount of the subsidized loans, I should have like $1500 left over if I go halftime. That's a plane ticket to New Zealand or Korea. With the cash I got for Christmas, and If I save up some more money, that'd be enough to go to both, and Europe too.
Then I'd still have enough subsidized loans to finish up with a few grand to spare next year.
It's scary, making a decision like this. This is what I wanted for so long, and it seems like it's gonna come together, and I get cold feet.
What is the path of least resistance? Staying in Denver, for sure. I'm comfortable there. I like it. I want to be in over my head. I stuck with school so long because I wanted to get good grades. I was annoyed that other people could get A's and I couldn't I wanted to prove to myself that I can actually work hard for something when I need to, and accomplish something. I feel like I did that this semester, and my grades reflected that.
I set a goal last new year's to get straight A's. I dropped the ball my spring semester, but I pulled it together in the fall. I'm feeling pretty good about that.
It's scary to think about going out of the country. We are so much a product of our culture. Part of the reason I want to travel is to see who I am. What part of me is resilient in the face of a different culture, and how much of me changes depending on my surroundings?
I think some time abroad will give me the motivation to get my shit together and get out of the country, or make me realize that America is pretty sweet, in which case I'll take as much time as possible to finish school and enjoy the ride. I feel like I shouldn't treat school as just away to get out of America unless I REALLY want to get out of here.
This sounds familiar, so I might be repeating myself. I do that a lot.
So, finish school a semester sooner, or do a semester online, and go on crazy adventures?
Should I try to move in with Jack? He seemed like a cool dude. Wild Oats adjacent. A lot closer to school. Not a bad apartment. But it's an apartment.
Please talk me out of moving back here. I have the feeling I will either love it, or really regret it. Although I was doing some math on the school money, and if I get the whole amount of the subsidized loans, I should have like $1500 left over if I go halftime. That's a plane ticket to New Zealand or Korea. With the cash I got for Christmas, and If I save up some more money, that'd be enough to go to both, and Europe too.
Then I'd still have enough subsidized loans to finish up with a few grand to spare next year.
It's scary, making a decision like this. This is what I wanted for so long, and it seems like it's gonna come together, and I get cold feet.
What is the path of least resistance? Staying in Denver, for sure. I'm comfortable there. I like it. I want to be in over my head. I stuck with school so long because I wanted to get good grades. I was annoyed that other people could get A's and I couldn't I wanted to prove to myself that I can actually work hard for something when I need to, and accomplish something. I feel like I did that this semester, and my grades reflected that.
I set a goal last new year's to get straight A's. I dropped the ball my spring semester, but I pulled it together in the fall. I'm feeling pretty good about that.
It's scary to think about going out of the country. We are so much a product of our culture. Part of the reason I want to travel is to see who I am. What part of me is resilient in the face of a different culture, and how much of me changes depending on my surroundings?
I think some time abroad will give me the motivation to get my shit together and get out of the country, or make me realize that America is pretty sweet, in which case I'll take as much time as possible to finish school and enjoy the ride. I feel like I shouldn't treat school as just away to get out of America unless I REALLY want to get out of here.
This sounds familiar, so I might be repeating myself. I do that a lot.
So, finish school a semester sooner, or do a semester online, and go on crazy adventures?