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"you cut that invisible string with your razorblade of a heart. you gouged the trust when you took matters into your own hands. my attempts at forgiveness have all been in vain. much the same as our friendship which should have been short-lived. i don't think that you will ever truly understand the impact that you have over me. the fact that i lie anxiously waiting for this feeling of misconception to pass. and no matter how much i attempt to deny you of this, my mind was always much stronger than my weakened heart. and when i don't look you in the eyes, my intentions aren't to make your demise, but to forget you ever happened and gain composure...collectively. where did your golden heart flee to? were you just too preoccupied and ended with a heart the bloody red color of hate. where have you gone? my lost companion. i can't forgive you because i still haven't forgiven myself." --- ****oxygenated forgiveness****