fuck valentines

[natnewms]

valentine's day has always been my least favorite holiday....i suppose that my hatred for valentine's day began back in elementary school. everyone was supposed to bring a valentine for each child in the class, and when you didn't receive a valentine from someone chances are they didn't like you. it just seemed too much like a blatant "i love you-i hate you" holiday. and basically this was never quite me. carnations in middle school, cute, yes, but on the other hand...it became a competition as to who would receive more. expensive jewelry, fattening chocolates, and delicate roses seem to be the cliched components of valentine's day...aiming to please someone that you supposedly care about and generally not succeeding due to gift receipients reading too much into the gift because they're trying to figure out the thought behind it. if you don't receive the typical chocolate, your significant other thinks that you overweight, if you don't get flowers, they don't really care. if they don't get you the jewelry, then they don't love you enough to spend an abundance of money on you. and if they give you all three, you claim that it's too much. there is no winning.

maybe i'm just partial because i was dumped right after we exchanged valentine's gifts. or maybe because valentine's day inevitably leads to breakup in general. last year i got the best valentine's day gift of my life...2 tickets to bob dylan...2 tickets to the concert that i wanted to go to most...and days after...yet another breakup...a few years ago, i went on a date with the boy that i had a crush on, but it turned out to be a one time thing. it seems as though valentine's day is just not a success for me.

i've decided that i'm giving valentines to everyone...i don't want anyone to feel the blatant "i just hate you" of the holiday...so if you want a valentine just leave a comment...and i will make one especially for you...
Peace