I should do stuff.

[natmun]

So it seems that I havent been doing enough of....anything. To excercise those writing muscles of mine. specifically poetry. It occured to me that I havent written anything in like....a year and a half. Mr. Lopez would CRY. But then again. My poety ussually comes in waves as is.---Granted those waves corrispond with when im taking a poetry class *cough* but outside of class I just dont have the motivation. I know...thats the point right? I should be motivated on my own to create art. Fail. Am Fail. I have been sketching alot though, and role playing..alot of my sketching comes from my role playing. I've almost filled the sketch book supermuse gave me. I think i like the structure of classes providing specific time in my dayly life for things like art and poetry. I could do it myself but the only schedual I have ever stuck to is my work and school schedual...I fail at self motivation. I thought that promptdujour comunity (see friends page) would get me working....but...fail.

It occures to me that is proably why i sew for other people. While it winds up driving me NUTZ, the constraints of making something for someone else under a time limit is like.....all I can do to motivate myself. Or if Im geting something out of it like a prize or recognition. I dont do anything for itself. Im not sure when I sold out but im starting to think i never bought in.

-motivate-nat-