JOSH I NEED YOU!!!
I swear I hate this...I'll be ok for a while then some little thing will just send me into this mood...I miss Josh so bad...I don't know why now it's so bad...I miss him all the time just sometimes are worse than others and right now its HORRID...I thought I had finally got past the point that I was breaking down and crying uncontrollably...god I was wrong...I just want you home...I've still got almost 2 months to wait...grrr...why does it take forever for you to get here then you're gone before I know it...I miss you so much...don't be surprised when I don't let go of you for the first few days your home...then I probably still won't let go until you get on the plan to leave...it does help knowing that their is a time to look forward to...before it was just some random future date...Mom & Mawmaw finally set a date for the bridal shower...July 17th...I love you so much and miss you so damn much