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This wk has been caotic. I've been busy talking to my investigator, blocking out of air, starting naval and saying good byes :( But I'm actually feeling good today despite the goodbyes. It's like I've been dreading yesterday for a month or so now, just knowing it was gonna slap me in the face out of nowhere. ha. For the first time that I can remember I cried when Carl left yesterday. Well. Other then when I left my dad and mom for basic training. But I mean I'm used to leaving people and I'm not usually a crier when it comes to that. I already miss him and white and alex. We just all bonded quickly and then they had to go :( The night before Carl and I had somewhat of a massive argument. It was a good thing though, I think we got a lot out I know I did. Yesterday I went to my room during lunch and Carl drove his mom's car over so we could chat and say good byes. It was nice that we had the coverage of the car haha, because I wasn't sure how that would work since we were both in uniform, you can't even technically hug in uniform. And by the way he was looking mighty good in it :) I'm used to seeing him in his cami's, he even looks cute in those. So we remanissed and I gave him a really cool frame with several pictures inside, it has different layers of glass to put pics in so it almost looked like a collage type thing, I wanna buy one now it turned out awesome. He told me he was really gonna miss me and the flood gates opened, I could not hold back the tears. But honestly I am so happy with the way things turned out. We've pretty much vowed that no matter where we go, or what ends up happening with "us" we will always be friends and keep in touch. He really is a life long friend that I will still have yrs from now.I can't wait till Sept. he is in a wedding and wants me to take leave and go w/him. So I thought I was done w/ all that but then last night Alex called and apparently he didnt leave right away like everyone else so he wanted to see Brianne and I before he did. We talked till like 11:30ish. I will miss those boys so much. It's almost my turn, I am counting down the days, about a month which should fly by. Cake walk baby haa. later.