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So, here's what I want to talk about.
Polyamory.
I am naturally inclined towards polyamory, but I'm in a monogamous relationship. I'm generally open to my Fiance about this and he is happy as we are, but sometimes obviously open to the idea of other things when I talk about them. We once attempted to engage in a polyamorous relationship of sorts with a third party, but it all went horribly wrong and I was left out in the cold - I won't go into details, just know that it was absolutely heart breaking and it took a long time to recover.
But still, my nature remains.
Don't get me wrong, I love my Fiance and would be happy with just him for the rest of my life. But, a part of me wants more, and I wish I knew why. I want more people to love, to hug, to cuddle, to snuggle, to kiss. Sure I think about sex, but at it's core it's not about sex. I want someone to date, to woo, to make feel good.
There's someone that I care about greatly, and she likes me too, but she is younger than me and simply will not partake in a polyamorous relationship. I don't blame her at all and I completely agree with her decision, but God does it hurt.
Waaaah waaaah woe is me.
I'm ronery.
Polyamory.
I am naturally inclined towards polyamory, but I'm in a monogamous relationship. I'm generally open to my Fiance about this and he is happy as we are, but sometimes obviously open to the idea of other things when I talk about them. We once attempted to engage in a polyamorous relationship of sorts with a third party, but it all went horribly wrong and I was left out in the cold - I won't go into details, just know that it was absolutely heart breaking and it took a long time to recover.
But still, my nature remains.
Don't get me wrong, I love my Fiance and would be happy with just him for the rest of my life. But, a part of me wants more, and I wish I knew why. I want more people to love, to hug, to cuddle, to snuggle, to kiss. Sure I think about sex, but at it's core it's not about sex. I want someone to date, to woo, to make feel good.
There's someone that I care about greatly, and she likes me too, but she is younger than me and simply will not partake in a polyamorous relationship. I don't blame her at all and I completely agree with her decision, but God does it hurt.
Waaaah waaaah woe is me.
I'm ronery.