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There's currently a thread on Coscom asking people to post their greatest fears, serious ones and not silly ones, as a child and as an adult.
My post:
"As a child?
I was terrified every day of my eldest sister going over the edge and either killing herself or trying to kill me. I was plagued with constant nightmares that she would go too far and just grab a knife in the kitchen and drive it into me.
I was scared that she would beat the crap out of me.
I was also scared of my Mother hating me, especially after she declared that she didn't love me.
As an adult?
I am so irrationally scared of the thought that my partner will die in an accident or somesuch.
I'm also really scared of the possibility of addiction to pain killers, because my Mother and eldest sister constantly accuse me of being addicted to Ibuprofen (note: this is 100% unfounded and nonsensical, I am in absolutely no way addicted to them), my sister even tried to force me to confess that I had tried to overdose when I never even contemplated it.
I'm also scared of doing something silly to myself, but that fear lessens every day."
My post:
"As a child?
I was terrified every day of my eldest sister going over the edge and either killing herself or trying to kill me. I was plagued with constant nightmares that she would go too far and just grab a knife in the kitchen and drive it into me.
I was scared that she would beat the crap out of me.
I was also scared of my Mother hating me, especially after she declared that she didn't love me.
As an adult?
I am so irrationally scared of the thought that my partner will die in an accident or somesuch.
I'm also really scared of the possibility of addiction to pain killers, because my Mother and eldest sister constantly accuse me of being addicted to Ibuprofen (note: this is 100% unfounded and nonsensical, I am in absolutely no way addicted to them), my sister even tried to force me to confess that I had tried to overdose when I never even contemplated it.
I'm also scared of doing something silly to myself, but that fear lessens every day."