gah...
I like to beat myself up when I fuck up and that's what I'm doing right now. Hating myself for even considering it for the shortest of seconds, let alone longer. I'm standing here without direction yet I have those feelings that guide me and they are steering me in the wrong direction over and over again. I'm not sure what it is I'm looking for but I know that I find it in all the wrong places. I hate it when I find myself in places I don't want to be.