Tagged by blam_blazer
Rules:
A. List seven habits/quirks/facts about yourself.
B. Tag seven people to do the same.
C. Do not tag the person who tagged you or say that you "tag whoever wants to do it."
1. I have bouts of obsessive compulsive disorder. It happens randomly (and not that often) but usually revolves around leaving my dwelling at the time. I have been known to unlock my door 4-5 times to make sure that lights are off, things unplugged etc. Not only has this made me late on occasion I feel its the result of my father being a firefighter when I was little. Pretty much everything I obsess about is fire-hazard related. It tends to help a lot when other people are leaving with me since I trust they have been paying attention too. Not always correct I'm sure but whatever.
2. I never really realized what unconditional love was until I came to the realization a year or so ago that I could lay my life down on an immediate instant for my little brother. No questions asked, I'd just do it. Of course then the doubter in me came back with - Is it unconditional love, or are you just selfish because you'd prefer the pain of death rather than the much more painful experience of your brother dying.
3. I've cried more in the past year than probably my entire life. Not so much depressed crying but in movies and conversation and little things. Women are NOT the only ones who go through hormonal changes in their lives. I've only ever teared up in a movie theater (including The Passion) - last month during P.S. I Love You, I sobbed through out the entire thing. Sobbed.
4. I get ridiculous crushes on guys and it takes me years (in one case 7 and counting) sometimes to get over them. There is kind of one now, that I really really like him, but I know 1. He's out of my league a bit 2. I have a ton of work to do on myself physically and emotionally before I am ready for something serious and 3. He's a fantastic friend. I like to pretend I am getting better as I go along, most likely not.
5. If someone came up to me tomorrow and gave me the option of becoming completely straight - loving women, having my own children, being able to synch with my family...I'd say no. I'm not even entirely sure why, but I feel that its so much a core of my being that I could never remake a part of my soul and live with myself. I hate it when people put sexuality in a box, "being gay is just a part of my whole." Your soul isn't a pie chart, I can't just dismiss part of it. It's like if my soul were green, my faith is yellow and gay is blue. It's impossible to see green and not look at the blue.
6. I...still have a blanket. From my child hood. It generally remains hidden, but its here at school with me. My brother still has his too.
7. I write for the sole purpose that one day, I might just slip into a world I created and not come back.
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ruffianran429
weelittlehobbit
sertascheep
jamesyboy_life
A. List seven habits/quirks/facts about yourself.
B. Tag seven people to do the same.
C. Do not tag the person who tagged you or say that you "tag whoever wants to do it."
1. I have bouts of obsessive compulsive disorder. It happens randomly (and not that often) but usually revolves around leaving my dwelling at the time. I have been known to unlock my door 4-5 times to make sure that lights are off, things unplugged etc. Not only has this made me late on occasion I feel its the result of my father being a firefighter when I was little. Pretty much everything I obsess about is fire-hazard related. It tends to help a lot when other people are leaving with me since I trust they have been paying attention too. Not always correct I'm sure but whatever.
2. I never really realized what unconditional love was until I came to the realization a year or so ago that I could lay my life down on an immediate instant for my little brother. No questions asked, I'd just do it. Of course then the doubter in me came back with - Is it unconditional love, or are you just selfish because you'd prefer the pain of death rather than the much more painful experience of your brother dying.
3. I've cried more in the past year than probably my entire life. Not so much depressed crying but in movies and conversation and little things. Women are NOT the only ones who go through hormonal changes in their lives. I've only ever teared up in a movie theater (including The Passion) - last month during P.S. I Love You, I sobbed through out the entire thing. Sobbed.
4. I get ridiculous crushes on guys and it takes me years (in one case 7 and counting) sometimes to get over them. There is kind of one now, that I really really like him, but I know 1. He's out of my league a bit 2. I have a ton of work to do on myself physically and emotionally before I am ready for something serious and 3. He's a fantastic friend. I like to pretend I am getting better as I go along, most likely not.
5. If someone came up to me tomorrow and gave me the option of becoming completely straight - loving women, having my own children, being able to synch with my family...I'd say no. I'm not even entirely sure why, but I feel that its so much a core of my being that I could never remake a part of my soul and live with myself. I hate it when people put sexuality in a box, "being gay is just a part of my whole." Your soul isn't a pie chart, I can't just dismiss part of it. It's like if my soul were green, my faith is yellow and gay is blue. It's impossible to see green and not look at the blue.
6. I...still have a blanket. From my child hood. It generally remains hidden, but its here at school with me. My brother still has his too.
7. I write for the sole purpose that one day, I might just slip into a world I created and not come back.
Tags:
bull_dawg_baby
ruffianran429
weelittlehobbit
sertascheep
jamesyboy_life