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So I am now living in Newcastle, Maine. Its really beautiful up here, although rather remote. Nowhere near as secluded as Alfred though. We live right next to an organic farm in a valley, so come winter, the view is going to be great. I've been here a week, and have spent a good chunk of every day driving around looking for a part-time job. No luck so far. I need to make $1000 a month, which I dont think is really that much. I'm here to make work, so I am nnot going to be able to take a 40 hour per week job. If I wanted to do that, I might as well head back to Boston and live with my dad. i've started to get into the studio, but it'll take a bit of time go get into the flow of things.
Prague was awesome. I became the key miniature artist for the film, and got to boss people around and build a miniature city. That was fun. I was given an invitation to return possibly come May. Sweet.
Kate and I have ended our relationship, which is bittersweet. I thought about her so much when I was away, and was looking foward to seeing her when I got back to the states. As soon as I returned, it became very clear very quickly that there was really no interest on her part in resuming any type of romantic relationship. Based on what we've both been through over and over the past year, I think it is probable that her and Evan have begun rethinking their relationship, but thats just a hunch. I fell for her so completely and deeply that it was/is very hard for me to see what a hurtful person she is capible of being. it is frightening, frustrating, sad, and amazing that one can fall so deeply in love with the very person who is causing so much hurt. Yet I keep coming back for more. With the benifit of time, perhaps maybe her and I can revaluate some things and reconnect in the future. i would very much like that. But I need to move on and live a little, and she needs to figure out what the hell she wants out of life. I'd love to be there for her, but as an equal companion and lover, not as a therapist.
So thats whats new with me. i'll be here until mid May sometime, and then I dunno what. I am still verymuch hoping to head to the west coast in the next year. If the work that comes out of this residency is good, there is a slim chance I might be looking at grad school in the near future, but I think that i need some time off from the whole school thing.
Prague was awesome. I became the key miniature artist for the film, and got to boss people around and build a miniature city. That was fun. I was given an invitation to return possibly come May. Sweet.
Kate and I have ended our relationship, which is bittersweet. I thought about her so much when I was away, and was looking foward to seeing her when I got back to the states. As soon as I returned, it became very clear very quickly that there was really no interest on her part in resuming any type of romantic relationship. Based on what we've both been through over and over the past year, I think it is probable that her and Evan have begun rethinking their relationship, but thats just a hunch. I fell for her so completely and deeply that it was/is very hard for me to see what a hurtful person she is capible of being. it is frightening, frustrating, sad, and amazing that one can fall so deeply in love with the very person who is causing so much hurt. Yet I keep coming back for more. With the benifit of time, perhaps maybe her and I can revaluate some things and reconnect in the future. i would very much like that. But I need to move on and live a little, and she needs to figure out what the hell she wants out of life. I'd love to be there for her, but as an equal companion and lover, not as a therapist.
So thats whats new with me. i'll be here until mid May sometime, and then I dunno what. I am still verymuch hoping to head to the west coast in the next year. If the work that comes out of this residency is good, there is a slim chance I might be looking at grad school in the near future, but I think that i need some time off from the whole school thing.