....Quote of the day 1
"the hardest part isn't finding what we need to be, it's being content with who we are"
from the Ataris song - As I leave here today, apartment 108
I'll always keep you in my heart.
Anderson is cold tonight,
The leaves are scattered on the ground.
I miss the seasons,
And the comfort of your smile.
Sometimes this all feels like a dream.
I'm waiting for someone to just wake me up,
From this life.
As I look out at these fairgrounds,
I remember how our family split apart.
I don't think I ever told you,
But I know you always did your best.
And the hard times,
They only made us stronger.
As I sit here all alone,
I wonder how I'm suppose to carry on when you're gone.
I'll never be the same without you,
I love you more then you will ever know.
So maybe now you finally know.
Sometimes we're helpless and alone,
But you can let it keep you weighted down.
You must go on.
Do you ever feel like crying?
Do you ever feel like giving up?
I raise my hands up towards the sky,
I say this prayer for you tonight,
Because nothing is impossible.
As I sit here all alone,
I wonder how I'm suppose to carry on when you're gone.
I'll never be the same without you,
I love you more then you will ever know.
So maybe now you finally know.
Sometimes we're helpless and alone,
But you can let it keep you weighted down.
You must go on.
(The hardest part isn't finding who we need to be, it's being content with who you are.)
Stay who you are.
You must go on.
Stay who you are.
Sometimes though, I can't get over the way I am. Sometimes overly friendly, too drunk, too angry/agressive, flirty (although not so much, if ever, with people I dont know these days) and sometimes I enjoy my own company too much. This wouldn't bother me too much if I didn't overly worry sometimes how these things effect Jen (and on occasion the others around me). Sometimes I over analyse a hug I gave someone or the mood I was in when I was drunk and more so when I'm sober. I s'pose I'm only human. I still have certain traits I had when I met Jen and even now that we are married. Should I change the way I am?? I s'pose it's a case of over analysis....or is it? Who am I to say?
I can hold my hands up and say that...
YES! I do drink too much (sometimes), but never with the desire that I'd need to do it every day. I'd also say I can (NOW) curb my intake if necessary....3 weeks with only one pint...it is do-able for a jake like me. ;)
YES! I do still look at other people, but never with a mind to actually go after someone. But where is the harm in looking? Just because they aren't film stars or models or whatever...I don't actually want...i'm just looking.
YES! Sometimes, even I find my own behaviour inappropriate, But never to the extent where I wouldn't trust myself....It's more a case of worrying if others trust me...(do they?)
and
YES! I bloody over analyse everything...sometimes. I just can't help it.
So, is being content with who I am the proper thing to do. Should I change those parts of me that I worry about and analyse? I'm about 85% content with me, I'm just not content with how others see it. The fact that I do worry and over analyse means that I atleast have a heart and a conscience...if i didn't care, well, that'd be a sign to start worrying...no?!?
Anyway.....Who is truley content with who they are?
from the Ataris song - As I leave here today, apartment 108
I'll always keep you in my heart.
Anderson is cold tonight,
The leaves are scattered on the ground.
I miss the seasons,
And the comfort of your smile.
Sometimes this all feels like a dream.
I'm waiting for someone to just wake me up,
From this life.
As I look out at these fairgrounds,
I remember how our family split apart.
I don't think I ever told you,
But I know you always did your best.
And the hard times,
They only made us stronger.
As I sit here all alone,
I wonder how I'm suppose to carry on when you're gone.
I'll never be the same without you,
I love you more then you will ever know.
So maybe now you finally know.
Sometimes we're helpless and alone,
But you can let it keep you weighted down.
You must go on.
Do you ever feel like crying?
Do you ever feel like giving up?
I raise my hands up towards the sky,
I say this prayer for you tonight,
Because nothing is impossible.
As I sit here all alone,
I wonder how I'm suppose to carry on when you're gone.
I'll never be the same without you,
I love you more then you will ever know.
So maybe now you finally know.
Sometimes we're helpless and alone,
But you can let it keep you weighted down.
You must go on.
(The hardest part isn't finding who we need to be, it's being content with who you are.)
Stay who you are.
You must go on.
Stay who you are.
Sometimes though, I can't get over the way I am. Sometimes overly friendly, too drunk, too angry/agressive, flirty (although not so much, if ever, with people I dont know these days) and sometimes I enjoy my own company too much. This wouldn't bother me too much if I didn't overly worry sometimes how these things effect Jen (and on occasion the others around me). Sometimes I over analyse a hug I gave someone or the mood I was in when I was drunk and more so when I'm sober. I s'pose I'm only human. I still have certain traits I had when I met Jen and even now that we are married. Should I change the way I am?? I s'pose it's a case of over analysis....or is it? Who am I to say?
I can hold my hands up and say that...
YES! I do drink too much (sometimes), but never with the desire that I'd need to do it every day. I'd also say I can (NOW) curb my intake if necessary....3 weeks with only one pint...it is do-able for a jake like me. ;)
YES! I do still look at other people, but never with a mind to actually go after someone. But where is the harm in looking? Just because they aren't film stars or models or whatever...I don't actually want...i'm just looking.
YES! Sometimes, even I find my own behaviour inappropriate, But never to the extent where I wouldn't trust myself....It's more a case of worrying if others trust me...(do they?)
and
YES! I bloody over analyse everything...sometimes. I just can't help it.
So, is being content with who I am the proper thing to do. Should I change those parts of me that I worry about and analyse? I'm about 85% content with me, I'm just not content with how others see it. The fact that I do worry and over analyse means that I atleast have a heart and a conscience...if i didn't care, well, that'd be a sign to start worrying...no?!?
Anyway.....Who is truley content with who they are?