i just can't look it's killing me....let me go

[nataxia]

how did it end up like this?

i don't even know what to say or how to do anything right now experiencing a strange spell of despair or heartbreak or depression or something & somehow kind of removed from it too like i'm watching it happen from somewhere else

i want to go i don't belong in this town why the fuck did i move back in the first place

& the shows next week are going to be fucking huge & i don't have time to be immobilized by feeling so unloved & unwanted

i've got to leave or it's going to kill me