"we are the same blood"
I just recently purchased a CD. It's name is
SANTI
everyone should go pick it up.
So i'm going to do a fun update then my serious one because i feel like being serious.
Fun: Hung out with Alex and Becca today. pretty fun. me and alex kept on being on wavelengths about a certain guy that i will not mention for privacy purposes (and no it's not anyone famous). But besides all that today was fun. Like i said above SANTI. i got it. I like it. Cant wait to meet Beckett on April 28th.
Which reminds me. 23 days until my show with the ever so beautiful boys of Fall Out Boy, +44, The Academy Is..., Paul Wall and the boys and girl of Cobra Starship. seriously Vicky-T is probably the luckiest girl ever. One girl with like 15 boys. I'd be happy.
Serious: It's hard for me to say i'm going to be serious. Because i honestly dont think i take anything seriously anymore. I really am in desperate need of money. and of my liscense. i know your all probably rolling your eyes thinking" that girl doesn't have her liscense? what is wrong with her?" yeah. i know i'm an idiot. but i'm not like wanting to force myself to get my license because then i'll have another thing that i'll lose money towards. i barely have enough money to hang out with friends and to have to pay for gas would just suck!. I'm wanting a boyfriend very very badly so. i hate not having someone to care about. i feel like i have so much love in me but no one wants it from me. I know you all read the love letter. I was thinking about people that i had cared about and who i would have been writing to had i actually been dating that person. I'm obviously not cut out for the romantic world however. especially a girl like me. See what i mean when i say i can't be serious. i also can't be stupid. I hate not being able to show people that i'm a smart person, and to show that i'm smart people say i come off as stuck up and as show offy as people want me to be. I just don't know anymore.
i read Pete's journals and i think. I think of the knowledge he has as an older person who's seen the world and as an older person who has been through the hardest things in life. I wish i could be like him.
haven't you ever wanted to travel. i have... im sick of writing and i'm sure your sick of reading so i'll end this now.