Another One of Those....
Ack. Okay I really tried not to leave yet another emo blog about the show but lord knows I ramble. And talk. A lot. So pretty much, here's why I'm so bothered by stupid endings to stupid shows.
This is about Luke and Noah. Not my hatred for the LuRe pairing or bitching about some fan that pissed me off or how I think Reid is a little too much. Because, honestly? Learning what will happen has definitely made me aware that there are things that piss me off more.
I knew about Luke and Noah before I started watching. Tanya was a fan for a long ass time. Tanya was a fan before she started posting, before she even started lurking and knew the name Van Hansis and Jake Silbermann. I remember hearing about the first kiss and seeing it on various blogs and remember what an event it was. And I remember being so SHOCKED at how everyone seemed to know everyone, what good friends everyone seemed to be. That this couple brought so many people together amazed me.
It was their first kiss. The majority of us, the majority of viewers will tell you the first thing they remember about Luke and Noah and being introduced to the show was their first kiss. And maybe it was before, maybe after but what touched me about Luke and Noah’s story was how it wasn’t just about them being gay. They had a love story that really changed so many people’s lives. And hey - let’s look at the gay thing. The fact that the show was showing us two men fall in love is pretty fucking stellar. It’s historic. It dared the genre of soaps to open their eyes.
There is a pretty long list of shit we had to go through though because they were pretty chicken shit. They listened to the back lash and let the bad guys win. But fans of Luke and Noah are FIERCE and stuck through and spoke out when it wasn’t right. Luke and Noah’s progress in their relationship is thanks to their fans. If they had sat back then there wouldn’t be a third kiss, sex or even Luke and Noah period.
And Luke and Noah in general. GOD. I mean, really? Holy shit. Soaps get a bad rap but being a soap, we were told their story told more often. It’s told at a slower pace with more airtime a week instead of a 10 minute per week shout out. But we SAW Luke and Noah fall in love. We saw the attraction, the fight against it, the welcoming of it, the deeper feelings that grew into love, the fights, the heartbreaks, the reunions as they couldn’t stay away from each other - every story line always SHOWED us how in love they were. Van and Jake acted their fine little asses off and no matter how ridiculous their story, they still made us believe that Luke and Noah were helpless when it came to their love for one another.
I remember the scene when Noah was about to marry Ameera and promised Luke that someday it would be them. I remember Luke confessing to Noah under the mistletoe how he was so in love with Noah. Twice. I remember Noah’s transition between being too afraid of holding hands with Luke to practically making out with him in the middle of Java and always leaving with an “I love you”. Noah holding Luke and Luke holding Noah. Noah reassuring Luke that he was his happy ending. Noah buying Luke flowers and writing him a cheesy ass card. Twice. I remember Luke telling Noah he never had to “get over his first.” I remember Luke and Noah crossing over the “puppy love” stage that so many people like pretending it all was.
The show though? Doesn’t. The show doesn’t remember ANY of that. The show doesn’t remember passionate, strong-willed, loving, little shit Luke Snyder. The show doesn’t remember that Noah helped Luke walk again, the show doesn’t remember that Luke was pushing NOAH away when he thought Holden died and that Noah showed up at Luke’s house and told him he didn’t care and he was going to be there for Luke. This is what really hurts. In the shows eyes, the years of 2007, 2008 and 2009 never happened. What the Luke and Noah fans have done for this show is a moot point in the world of CG.
There’s this Aerosmith lyric in the song "Amazing" that makes me think of the ending;
“Life’s a journey, not a destination. And I just can’t tell just what tomorrow brings.”
And I know I said I wouldn’t bitch about the Luke/Reid pairing but
it needs to be said after all this Luke and Noah memory lane moments. Luke and Noah’s story WAS a journey. They had multiple story lines, and even though some weren’t our favorites, every one of them made the boys realize something else about the other. Made them love the other more.
And I look at Luke/Reid. And the “love” that we’re supposed to be getting is alllllll about the destination. How hard can they make Luke fall in love with Reid to make his death all the more devastating?
Since GRADE school I was always taught “SHOW, don’t tell.” If it’s a beautiful day, don’t just write, “It’s a beautiful day.” Make your readers able to see it themselves. See the bright skies, smell the flowers, feel the breeze. Make them consumed in it. But the last few weeks are going to be all about telling us. Luke’s going to tell us. Noah is going to tell us. Lily and Holden are going to tell us. We’re going to be told about Reid and his past and we’re going to be told that Luke isn’t in love with Noah.
Thanks.
Because in order to get to their destination (Reid dying, world weeps) they have to spit on what made us start watching in the first place. They have to assassinate the character of Luke so we can “believe” that Reid is the love of Luke’s life. The Luke we’ve seen on our screen the past three years CARES. But this Luke? Seems to not really give a shit about Noah. And that really fucking hurts. Having Noah onscreen to only be a catalyst for whatever feeling Luke is feeling about Reid is bullshit.
I was with so many people this weekend in Boston and WOW. SO many people don’t care anymore. This is what the show has done. So many hardcore Nuke fans have thrown their hands up in the air and called it quits. And me? I don’t want THIS Luke to end up with Noah. Not the Luke that tells Noah he’s over him and in love with Reid when Noah tells him he’s still in love. Not the Luke that has no ambitions, no drive. Not the Luke that has seemed to forget who Noah is and what they were. And THAT seriously gets me. That the same show that had introduced us to Luke and Noah has also, three years later, ends with them as miserable as possible.
This is not the same Luke and Noah.
But the sad thing is we never got to see our Luke and Noah have a happy ending. (we never will) The couple that we endlessly supported and stuck up for and stood by doesn’t get to be together in the end. They don’t even get to be IN LOVE. They don’t even get a scene where they talk about their love for EACH OTHER. Reid didn’t exist before 2010 and now that’s all we get to hear come from their mouths. In their last fucking episodes together. And while I understand that Luke is grieving, it would have been nice to at least RESPECT Luke and Noah’s story. Throw us a bone. Out of EVERY couple on that show, Luke and Noah deserve that. Bob and Kim and Margo and Tom have already been together for years. It goes without saying they’re “endgame.” Of course they were going to end up together. Carly and Jack had started their way back to one another months ago. But Luke and Noah had been in a committed, loving relationship for a long, long time. They were one of the most successful couples in soap history ending up in many publications naming top super couples of that genre. They ended up in primetime show articles talking about gay couples. They earned fan events and quotes from all three actors in the triangle that they should end up together. I will never be able to understand why the show didn’t cash in on their money couple and give the loyal fans the ending they deserved. Even if it was in some flash-forward that just implied Luke was hitting LA. The end is supposed to be about new beginnings and Luke is still stuck in the past.
And I understand when LuRe fans say they feel cheated. I’ll frequently hear how they feel cheated and they don’t see why the show didn’t just end with the couple that was so popular. That it was all build up and their guys get to fall in love and then Reid dies. I understand because us Nuke fans went through the same. Exact. Thing. We had, not nine, but over two years of build up. They got to fall in love and make love (I hate that saying but it sounds classier than ‘got to fuck’) and call each other family and have their own popular fanbase. We were cheated too. Just because your couple is more recent, doesn’t make it any less fair. We feel you.
Back to Luke/Noah :p
But March really being IT for them? Never being able to see them together again? Never seeing our Luke again? The last image of Luke and Noah? Noah walking away from Luke. Moving away and Luke still in love with another guy? Noah still being in love with Luke even though Luke’s heart has moved on (as the show is trying to tell us). Fuck you, show. Luke and Noah were such a beautiful couple. And while I don’t want Noah to be with a man that doesn’t love him, I still love the Luke and Noah that we saw before the show decided to ruin them. And it physically hurts how they decided to end their story. As emo as I’ve been this past year, I never DREAMED they would end it this badly.
(and btw. I hope there’s backlash. I hope CG is stuck the next five fucking years dodging questions on how he fucked over every fan base. I hope Van and Jake give their views on why they think the show decided to do with Nuke what they did. I hope we see many long time lurkers come out of the hiding to come together and cry out FAIL. I hope Luke and Noah end up in the big news again, this time questioning the shows views on gays being able to end up happy. In all? I really hope they don’t get away with this.)
This is about Luke and Noah. Not my hatred for the LuRe pairing or bitching about some fan that pissed me off or how I think Reid is a little too much. Because, honestly? Learning what will happen has definitely made me aware that there are things that piss me off more.
I knew about Luke and Noah before I started watching. Tanya was a fan for a long ass time. Tanya was a fan before she started posting, before she even started lurking and knew the name Van Hansis and Jake Silbermann. I remember hearing about the first kiss and seeing it on various blogs and remember what an event it was. And I remember being so SHOCKED at how everyone seemed to know everyone, what good friends everyone seemed to be. That this couple brought so many people together amazed me.
It was their first kiss. The majority of us, the majority of viewers will tell you the first thing they remember about Luke and Noah and being introduced to the show was their first kiss. And maybe it was before, maybe after but what touched me about Luke and Noah’s story was how it wasn’t just about them being gay. They had a love story that really changed so many people’s lives. And hey - let’s look at the gay thing. The fact that the show was showing us two men fall in love is pretty fucking stellar. It’s historic. It dared the genre of soaps to open their eyes.
There is a pretty long list of shit we had to go through though because they were pretty chicken shit. They listened to the back lash and let the bad guys win. But fans of Luke and Noah are FIERCE and stuck through and spoke out when it wasn’t right. Luke and Noah’s progress in their relationship is thanks to their fans. If they had sat back then there wouldn’t be a third kiss, sex or even Luke and Noah period.
And Luke and Noah in general. GOD. I mean, really? Holy shit. Soaps get a bad rap but being a soap, we were told their story told more often. It’s told at a slower pace with more airtime a week instead of a 10 minute per week shout out. But we SAW Luke and Noah fall in love. We saw the attraction, the fight against it, the welcoming of it, the deeper feelings that grew into love, the fights, the heartbreaks, the reunions as they couldn’t stay away from each other - every story line always SHOWED us how in love they were. Van and Jake acted their fine little asses off and no matter how ridiculous their story, they still made us believe that Luke and Noah were helpless when it came to their love for one another.
I remember the scene when Noah was about to marry Ameera and promised Luke that someday it would be them. I remember Luke confessing to Noah under the mistletoe how he was so in love with Noah. Twice. I remember Noah’s transition between being too afraid of holding hands with Luke to practically making out with him in the middle of Java and always leaving with an “I love you”. Noah holding Luke and Luke holding Noah. Noah reassuring Luke that he was his happy ending. Noah buying Luke flowers and writing him a cheesy ass card. Twice. I remember Luke telling Noah he never had to “get over his first.” I remember Luke and Noah crossing over the “puppy love” stage that so many people like pretending it all was.
The show though? Doesn’t. The show doesn’t remember ANY of that. The show doesn’t remember passionate, strong-willed, loving, little shit Luke Snyder. The show doesn’t remember that Noah helped Luke walk again, the show doesn’t remember that Luke was pushing NOAH away when he thought Holden died and that Noah showed up at Luke’s house and told him he didn’t care and he was going to be there for Luke. This is what really hurts. In the shows eyes, the years of 2007, 2008 and 2009 never happened. What the Luke and Noah fans have done for this show is a moot point in the world of CG.
There’s this Aerosmith lyric in the song "Amazing" that makes me think of the ending;
“Life’s a journey, not a destination. And I just can’t tell just what tomorrow brings.”
And I know I said I wouldn’t bitch about the Luke/Reid pairing but
it needs to be said after all this Luke and Noah memory lane moments. Luke and Noah’s story WAS a journey. They had multiple story lines, and even though some weren’t our favorites, every one of them made the boys realize something else about the other. Made them love the other more.
And I look at Luke/Reid. And the “love” that we’re supposed to be getting is alllllll about the destination. How hard can they make Luke fall in love with Reid to make his death all the more devastating?
Since GRADE school I was always taught “SHOW, don’t tell.” If it’s a beautiful day, don’t just write, “It’s a beautiful day.” Make your readers able to see it themselves. See the bright skies, smell the flowers, feel the breeze. Make them consumed in it. But the last few weeks are going to be all about telling us. Luke’s going to tell us. Noah is going to tell us. Lily and Holden are going to tell us. We’re going to be told about Reid and his past and we’re going to be told that Luke isn’t in love with Noah.
Thanks.
Because in order to get to their destination (Reid dying, world weeps) they have to spit on what made us start watching in the first place. They have to assassinate the character of Luke so we can “believe” that Reid is the love of Luke’s life. The Luke we’ve seen on our screen the past three years CARES. But this Luke? Seems to not really give a shit about Noah. And that really fucking hurts. Having Noah onscreen to only be a catalyst for whatever feeling Luke is feeling about Reid is bullshit.
I was with so many people this weekend in Boston and WOW. SO many people don’t care anymore. This is what the show has done. So many hardcore Nuke fans have thrown their hands up in the air and called it quits. And me? I don’t want THIS Luke to end up with Noah. Not the Luke that tells Noah he’s over him and in love with Reid when Noah tells him he’s still in love. Not the Luke that has no ambitions, no drive. Not the Luke that has seemed to forget who Noah is and what they were. And THAT seriously gets me. That the same show that had introduced us to Luke and Noah has also, three years later, ends with them as miserable as possible.
This is not the same Luke and Noah.
But the sad thing is we never got to see our Luke and Noah have a happy ending. (we never will) The couple that we endlessly supported and stuck up for and stood by doesn’t get to be together in the end. They don’t even get to be IN LOVE. They don’t even get a scene where they talk about their love for EACH OTHER. Reid didn’t exist before 2010 and now that’s all we get to hear come from their mouths. In their last fucking episodes together. And while I understand that Luke is grieving, it would have been nice to at least RESPECT Luke and Noah’s story. Throw us a bone. Out of EVERY couple on that show, Luke and Noah deserve that. Bob and Kim and Margo and Tom have already been together for years. It goes without saying they’re “endgame.” Of course they were going to end up together. Carly and Jack had started their way back to one another months ago. But Luke and Noah had been in a committed, loving relationship for a long, long time. They were one of the most successful couples in soap history ending up in many publications naming top super couples of that genre. They ended up in primetime show articles talking about gay couples. They earned fan events and quotes from all three actors in the triangle that they should end up together. I will never be able to understand why the show didn’t cash in on their money couple and give the loyal fans the ending they deserved. Even if it was in some flash-forward that just implied Luke was hitting LA. The end is supposed to be about new beginnings and Luke is still stuck in the past.
And I understand when LuRe fans say they feel cheated. I’ll frequently hear how they feel cheated and they don’t see why the show didn’t just end with the couple that was so popular. That it was all build up and their guys get to fall in love and then Reid dies. I understand because us Nuke fans went through the same. Exact. Thing. We had, not nine, but over two years of build up. They got to fall in love and make love (I hate that saying but it sounds classier than ‘got to fuck’) and call each other family and have their own popular fanbase. We were cheated too. Just because your couple is more recent, doesn’t make it any less fair. We feel you.
Back to Luke/Noah :p
But March really being IT for them? Never being able to see them together again? Never seeing our Luke again? The last image of Luke and Noah? Noah walking away from Luke. Moving away and Luke still in love with another guy? Noah still being in love with Luke even though Luke’s heart has moved on (as the show is trying to tell us). Fuck you, show. Luke and Noah were such a beautiful couple. And while I don’t want Noah to be with a man that doesn’t love him, I still love the Luke and Noah that we saw before the show decided to ruin them. And it physically hurts how they decided to end their story. As emo as I’ve been this past year, I never DREAMED they would end it this badly.
(and btw. I hope there’s backlash. I hope CG is stuck the next five fucking years dodging questions on how he fucked over every fan base. I hope Van and Jake give their views on why they think the show decided to do with Nuke what they did. I hope we see many long time lurkers come out of the hiding to come together and cry out FAIL. I hope Luke and Noah end up in the big news again, this time questioning the shows views on gays being able to end up happy. In all? I really hope they don’t get away with this.)