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I got into Santa Cruz and I am dying to move. I am constantly afraid to get comfortable again. When I am happy and feel like things are going well my subconscious reminds me of what reality is. My dreams torture me in the early morning making it apparent that things are not the way that I want them to be. I know I am going to hurt again. I just hope that I can avoid it before I move. After all it is only 2 months away. It shouldn't be so hard to pretend for that long... I hope you can do it.